I love you but you're an idiot

I'm sorry

A/N (PLEASE READ IT) I can't put trigger warnings here but please be aware that non-consensual touching will be mentioned but not detailed!

San had been waiting for an hour now. He was in the hospital, waiting as Wooyoung was getting checked. Without surprise they had found traces of drug in his saliva and now they were running more tests. They said it would most probably end up in a gastric lavage. They had to make sure that the drug wouldn't cause more damages to his brain or any other organ. So, San had been waiting. He had received a text from Hongjoong thirty minutes ago saying that they would arrive later. He just hoped that everything would go right. A doctor made her way out of Wooyoung's room and came to stand in front of him.

"Hello sir, we just got the results of the last test, it is GHB, we'll be running a gastric lavage to get it out of his system and he should wake up and be able to go home in a few hours. It isn't a harmful drug if it isn't used too much. It seemed like he had drunk quite a lot of alcohol, it is very bad as the reaction is even stronger when mixed up with alcohol. Don't worry, no damages should be done to his immune system though. This kind of incident is quite frequent and if you have any suspicion that it had been done to harm him in any way, please report it to the police."

She kindly said, bowing down before leaving. San felt relieved that Wooyoung was safe now. But is also felt terrible that he couldn't protect the younger before. He felt like he had failed as a boyfriend. He had obviously said something that had made Wooyoung sad yet he couldn't even apologize properly. He felt horrible. San saw Wooyoung being carried out of his room in a stretcher and could only look as they took him to another room to proceed with the gastric lavage. As the younger was still gone, all the other members arrived.

"How is he?"

Yeosang inquired, coming to sit beside him. Mingi sat on his other side, draping an arm around his shoulders.

"He is okay, they took him out to make a gastric lavage, to take the drug out. It was GHB..."

San said, looking down. He felt his eyes getting watery and his vision blurry and before he could stop it, tears were rolling down and dropping on the floor.

"I was so scared. I should have looked for him sooner, should have never left him alone..."

He mumbled through broken sobs, pushing his face in his hands. Hongjoong came to stand before him, squatting down to be face to face with him.

"San-ah, it's not your fault, we could have all done something sooner, but the culprits are those bastards! If it wasn't for them, Wooyoung would have been fine!"

He exclaimed, tightening his fists again.

"No, even before, I said something that made him upset! It's my fault!"

San cried even more. They all stood silent, comforting him by patting his back or hugging him.

After some time, Wooyoung was brought back to his room, still unconscious. It wasn't until the sun was far up in the sky that he woke up. When he did, a nurse immediately rushed in. San stood still, waiting for his turn to visit him. He was scared that maybe Wooyoung wouldn't want to see him, he had every reason to. But when the nurse came out, she directly approached him.

"You're San, right? Wooyoung is calling for you."

San sprung up, looking at the other members.

"That's okay, we'll leave you some time to sort things out, but not too long, I want to see my baby!"

Seonghwa said, waving him off, to which Yunho and Yeosang nodded.

San pushed the door open slightly and let himself in. He didn't dare to look at Wooyoung in the eyes as he still felt ashamed of himself.