Love Like Yours 💙 - A Hankcon Story

Chapter 10: System Status: Inebriated

Almost home. Almost...
Ugh walking has never been so hard! Connor complains.
Is this why Hank stumbles so much when he's drinking?
He straightens up and shakes his head. Thankfully I'm an android with incredible balance. He states out loud as he walks straight into Hank's door hitting his head against it. He can't help but to just laugh at himself. Struggling to get his key Hank gave him in the door; he suddenly finds himself stumbling forward through the door right into a gruff but warm man's arms.
Hank had heard all the commotion outside and opened the door assuming it was Connor but he was not prepared for a drunk Connor to fall into his arms. "Con your fucking plastered! Jesus Christ!" He tries to hold up the android. "Dammit Connor you're even heavier when you're drunk." "How the fuck are you even drunk?" All Connor is managing to do at this point is giggle. "This is basically payback Lieutenant!" He sounds so drunk but still so proper at the same time as he pokes Hank in his chest. "Fucking hell Connor, sit your ass down."
Connor smiles "Of course, Hank." He then smirks in a silly way, "As long as it's beside you." He basically pulls Hank down on the couch with him. "Shit Connor you're even more touchy when your drunk." He wiggles out of the androids grasp and scoots away from him and tries to ignore the needy android. Immediately he feels eyes peering into him; looking over he sees Connor making the biggest puppy eyes and starts whining at him. "Fuck Connor! Don't- don't do that." He looks away shyly and Connor stops and looks down. Hank rolls his eyes and scoots closer to Connor watching his eyes light up as he grabs a hold of him. He is about to push him off again before Connor buries his face into Hank's chest sighing softly he mutters; mostly to himself. "You're even softer and warmer than I imagined." Hank turns extremely red before gripping Connor's arms and pulling him back. "W- what are you doing Connor? You're being super fucking weird right now!" Hank blurts out trying not to sound put off. Connor nods. "I apologize Lieutenant, it must be the alcohol effecting my decision making." He scoots back from Hank and before anything else can be said he sees a big fluffy Sumo walk up to them. His eyes light up again as he basically throws himself to the floor to pet him. "Ahhh Sumo you're so.. so fluffy. I'm going to overload with cuteness right now! Ahh the softness!! And- and! I can finally feel your fur, it tickles!" He expresses as he loves and rolls all over the dog. Hank just watched in amusement before catching something.
"Connor.."
Connor looks up to him and tilts his head, "Yes Lieutenant?"
"Did you say you can feel his fur? Can you actually feel things now?" His voice trails off in confusion and curiosity.
Connor nods to him. "I was planning to tell you but yes I can to some degree; I received an update from Cyberlife I installed in my program. It's certainly not similar to how you humans perceive pain and feeling; but it's present. I also installed some other updates that allow me to enjoy things similarly to humans." He gestures to himself, "Like drinking or even listening to music." He slightly looks at the Jazz records in the room.
"Okay well.. Shit now it all makes sense then." Hank mumbles to himself.
Connor tilts his head again, waiting for Hank to finish. "What does Lieutenant?"
"Just- nothing Con. It's not important."
Connor lets out a big huff and gets up. "Lieutenant Anderson!" He tries to mutter up confidence behind his slurred speech. "We have been through this multiple times, and you know I won't leave you alone about it. So make things easier for the both of us and just tell me."
Connor then sits beside him as to not hover intimidatingly over him. "Just why you'd say what you said earlier." Connor face immediately  lights up blue not realizing Hank had heard him.
"I ah- I apologize Lieutenant. I wasn't trying to be unpleasant with that response. I just.." He trails off embarrassingly. "I just imagined you already felt that way but it was a lot more surreal to actually be able to feel and embrace in that." Hank gets a bit flustered at the android's soft spoken words, "Uh thank you Con."
"Lieutenant? Can I ask a favor of you?"
"What's up?"
"Can you squeeze my hand very tightly?"
"Con I don't want to-"
"Please Lieutenant, I'm positive I will be more than fine."
Hank rolls his eyes and grabs Connor's hand squeezing it hard with little to no effort. He really doesn't want to hurt him but he trusts Connor's decisions for himself. He squeezes a bit tighter before Connor lets out a little yelp, "Ow!" "OW! Hey it hurt!" Connor smiles. "It works!" Hank can't help but let out a huge laugh. Connor enjoying the pain definitely gave off a whole different message he's sure that Connor wouldn't understand.
Both of the men started to watch the tv in silence for a bit while Connor fidgeted with his hands contemplating.
"H-Hank?" He looks over at Connor who's led is now flashing yellow.
"Whats wrong Connor?" He places his hand on his shoulder and that only made Connor more nervous. "Ah I'm sorry to bother you Lieutenant, nothing is wrong- I just I uh-.." He stumbles on his words and his inebriated state was not helping his decision making at the moment. "I wanted to ask another favor of you.. And I completely understand if you don't want to and that's perfectly fine but I really wanted to ask!" He rambles on. "Fuck Con just spit it out already!"
"Can- can you kiss me Lieutenant?" Connor mumbles; his blue cheeks radiating in the dim living room.
"Excuse me? The fuck! Nope not happening." Hank shakes his head and crosses his arms trying his hardest to not show his flustered face. Connor nods feeling a very distinct feeling of shame he can't wrap his program around. "I understand Hank." He goes back to watching the show with him but all Hank can think about is what he was just asked.
*Hank's POV*
Shit Connor. Why did you ask me that?
Why would you ask me? Why would you even want to? Why did I want.. No nope I didn't! I just couldn't help but imagine it cause he asked! Fucking androids! He looks over to Connor who doesn't look particularly disappointed. I'm sure he would never express that though; in order to not make me feel bad. Still I did feel bad I want to know why but I feel like I can't just ask him without starting something. He lets out a heavy sigh before pulling Connor's face softly and kissing his cheek. "There.." He grumbles before shifting back quickly to his spot. Connor couldn't help but overheat a little at the gesture. "Thank you Lieutenant! Although that's not exactly what I'd meant, I appreciate it." He holds his cheek. "Don't make it such a big deal it's whatever."
Hank shakes his head replaying it in his mind, continuously questioning. I wasn't put off by Connor's request at all, as much as I acted like it.  Shit! I can't stand it! I can't drink and its making me realize shit and I wanna forget like I always do. Just fucking forget. I- I just don't want to- fucking shut up and just watch the damn tv! Thats all I want to do so just watch dammit. Hank tries to concentrate while Connor's mind wonders off as well.
*Connor's POV*
It just feels like such a big deal to me Hank.. and yet I still don't quite understand why.
Connor's state couldn't block out the memories of the night and what Markus had said. What if I do have a "crush" on him? Hank.. he means a lot to me, more than I can describe; but it feels so much deeper than just what Markus explained. Maybe that's why we still needed to talk. Maybe there's more I need to know but.. it all scares me. I- I don't want to feel this way and risk messing everything up! I couldn't bare losing him.. And I'm concerned that's all liking him would do. I shouldn't.. So I won't. I'll just forget about it all; like it didn't happen.
Connor's snapped out of his thoughts by Hank yawning. "Alright Connor I'm going to bed. You coming or are you staying up?" Connor shakes his head and gets up to follow Hank. He's about to go into his room before he feels a hand grip his arm lightly to stop him. "Connor, you're never a bother to me you know. I'm really.. glad you're around. It- makes me happy." He strains. Fuck I hate all this sentimental shit. Connor smiles warmly to him, "I'm glad Hank! I enjoy your company just as much." Hank clears his throat, "And you know if you ever need to.. I- I don't mind you sleeping in here with me. Not that I care if you do! Just you know.." Hank trails off from his awkward tone. Connor just shakes his head and plops his arms on Hank's shoulders, finally starting to get a little more sober. "If you wanted me to come with you Lieutenant, you could've just asked." He leaned in a little too close and almost stumbled forward but managed to play it off.  "Oh shut up!" Hank pushes him back slightly and Connor happily follows him into the room with Sumo not far behind. Connor crawls into the bed and is immediately met with the amazing feeling of weight being lifted off him. He giggles slightly to himself before turning over to Hank who's just smiling at him. "What?"
"N- nothing! Just go to bed now." He pets Connor's head slightly.
He smiles, "Goodnight Hank."
Goodnight.. Connor."
... Why do I let myself keep falling for this?
Why do I get charmed by his.. everything? Its stupid, but I love seeing him smile. Being- being the one who made him smile..
A frustrated and tired Hank forces his eyes closed; trying to think of anything but that.