Love Like Yours 💙 - A Hankcon Story

Chapter 20: Times Spent With You

Tuesday November 23, 2038
9:00 am

Connor had already woken up that morning before Hank. While waiting he sat in stasis in the living room.

Connor's mind palace
"Do you ever fucking sleep in?" Hank teased as they sat on his bed. "You know I don't actually sleep right?" Hank shook his head, "Yeah whatever. I just- you know.. wouldn't mind actually waking up to you sleeping for once." Connor smiled but it quickly faded. "Yes well.. I was just there because you needed me, I'm positive us sleeping beside each other will not happen again." His led spun yellow as his tone fell more machine like. "Jesus Connor, you heard him! Your fucking super computer programming is smart enough to figure out that he didn't regret what happened either, and that he does want to be with you." Connor irritatedly responds, "Well if that's the case.. he can tell me that if he wants but I'm positive it's merely a want based out of something else; things that I can't provide. I'll never be enough for what he could want." "Shit Connor! What about his words before falling asleep, he told you he missed you." Connor scoffed slightly continuing with a dismissive response, "Hank says a lot of shit that he doesn't mean, I can't hold onto all the small things he says." Hank moves closer to him and lays a hand on his leg, "But you still do.." Connor sighs looking down at Hank's hand; then up at him causing his gaze to soften slightly. Hank moves his hand slowly to Connor's face and holds it gently. Pulling him closer for a kiss until Connor's led flashed yellow and he pulls back. "I-I do.. but I can't. We'll never be anything more than what we are now and that's partners and the sooner I can accept that the easier everything will be." Connor sighs as he begins to wake himself out of dormancy.
Standing up, Connor decided he would go check on Hank. He opened the door quietly and was surprised to see Hank already up and getting dressed. "My apologies Lieutenant!" Connor quickly moved the door closed. Hank just shook his head as he laughed slightly. He assumed Connor was coming to check if he was awake yet.
Meanwhile Connor went back in the kitchen and prepared Hank's breakfast thinking about how he should get in a habit of knocking. It didn't take him long to prepare something simple for Hank; consisting of some fruit, eggs, and toast. He set the plate down and went over to feed and give Sumo water, kneeling down and smiling as he watched the dog. Connor enjoyed his routine he had but liked that Hank gave him the freedom to not have to consistently. It didn't take long for Hank after leaving his room and brushing his hair and teeth to come out of the bathroom. Connor pets Sumo once more before standing back up to greet Hank, but he is entranced when Hank walks in the kitchen with his hair pulled back into a messy ponytail. Connor smiled softly to him but remembered he was just staring and attempted to speak. "Oh- I.. I made your breakfast." Connor stutters as he moves out of the way so Hank could sit down and goes to sit beside him. "Thank you Connor and good morning." "Good morning Hank. I hope you slept alright." Hank smiled. "Ah shit- well better with you there for sure. Uh thanks again by the way." He pushed his food around his plate nervously and so obviously avoiding eye contact. Connor just looked at him lovingly and smiled again, "Of course. You don't have to thank me though, I'm always here for you Hank." Hank smiled but immediately tried to hide it and focus on eating. Connor waited patiently for Hank to finish his food since they both woke up early today; they had free time before having to go to work to spend together. As Hank finished his food, Connor moved into the living room and sat on the couch with Sumo. Hank followed not long after and sat next to him.
Connor finally decided to say what had been on his mind since he'd seen Hank come into the kitchen. "Lieutenant?" "What's up Connor?" Hank leans back on the couch as Sumo decides to crawl on top of him. "Goddamit Sumo could you be any heavier!" Connor just giggled as he watched him invade all of Hank's personal space. Trying to speak behind his laughter he continued his thought. "I was just- I just wanted to say-" Connor couldn't help but keep laughing and had to just stop talking so he could compose himself and so Sumo would stop moving so much. "Okay okay.. I'm sorry I couldn't help it, he was just being so cute with you." Hank just smiled slightly, "Take your time, no need to be sorry Connor." Connor smiled and blushed slightly, "I just wanted to say.. I think you look really nice today. I mean- not that you don't every other day just your hair- its.. different." He pauses. "In a good way! You just look handsome is what I was trying to say." Connor looked away shyly. Hank smiled slightly and laughed, "Shit- I think you need your eyes checked Connor.. but thank you." Connor gave him a now determined look, "Not at all Hank. I'm in perfect operating conditions so you look amazing to me, as you always do." Connor flashed him a soft side smile. "Alright alright I get it fucking android. You never stop trying to kiss up to me, do ya?"
Connor tilted his head slightly, "Should I stop Hank?" Hank blushed slightly. "Jesus Connor no it's not a bad thing! Now stop doing that cute tilt thing!" He holds Connor's sides of his face softly and fixes his head upwards as Connor just smiled.
The room went quiet for a little after that, just silence in one another's company petting Sumo together until Connor finally decided to ask Hank something. "Hank, I was going to go meet a new friend today after work but after last night.. I wondered if you might want me to stay with you today. Would that be something you wanted?"
Hank sat up a bit more and shook his head, "I'm all good Connor, you don't need to stick around constantly worrying over me." He came off a bit more defensive than he liked and Connor nodded slowly as his led turned yellow for a moment. Hank then sighed, "I appreciate that you worry about me Connor even if I don't understand why. I just.. don't want you putting your life on hold for me. I'm really not important enough for all that." Connor just hugged him tightly. "Hank.. please don't say that. You are- you are so important and not just to me. I would never consider my time with you 'putting my life on hold' because I.. I care so much for you.." He hugs him tighter. "I don't want to lose you Hank. I want to be there for you.. as much as you'll let me." Hank hugs him slowly and rubs his back. "Hey hey it's alright. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere.. I'm sorry I've scared you but we'll continue to work on it, okay?" Hank felt Connor nod his head under his chin and pulled him back rubbing his arms to comfort him once more. "You can stay with me if you really want to. I.. wouldn't dislike it." Connor shook his head at Hank's avoidance to just admitting he wanted him around but took it anyways. "Thats perfectly fine Hank. Thank you for being honest with me." Connor smiled softly. "So.. new friend huh?" Hank asked curiously. "Yes his name is Matt but like I already stated Lieutenant I don't mind, I can hang out with him anytime." "You can with me too Connor so whats the difference?" Connor blushed slightly, "I.. I just prefer being around you Hank, that's all." "Well I like being around you too Con." He pets his head messing up his hair. "Where did you meet this Matt guy anyway?" "At the bar.." Hank gave him a weird look as his tone got more protective, "Did he just come up to you Connor?" He shook his head, "Yes but no- I mean.. after he introduced himself I did too and we just started talking. He seemed concerned if I was alright and that's what caused him to approach me." Connor stated as he just relayed facts to Hank.
Hank tried not to express it but Connor saying that didn't sit well with him. That's so fucking weird. I mean shit.. maybe I'm just antisocial or just- I don't fucking know? Jealous. Wait why would I even think that?! What would I even have to be jealous of ? Ugh and just why does this Matt person think he needs to check on him for. Goddammit Connor I just want you to be careful..
"Connor.. is he a human?" Hank asked cautiously. "He is, why?" Connor tilted his head slightly. "Just- just be careful dammit Connor. You're smart.. you know how humans can be especially with androids. I just- I don't want to fucking.." He sighs, looking away as his voice trails off. "Please.." Connor looked at him with his puppy dog eyes and even though Hank wasn't looking he could tell what Connor was doing. "I don't want to lose you Connor.. not you too." Hank said dejectedly. Connor's led flashed blue then yellow as he slowly laid his head on Hank's chest. "I assure you, I'm not going anywhere Hank." Connor slowly nuzzled his face more into Hank's chest. He waited to see if Hank was going to react negatively; surprisingly though he just felt Hank's arm lay over him as he started to run his hand through Connor's hair. "Thank you Connor.." Connor smiled. Despite knowing he shouldn't be this close to Hank he wanted to comfort him. Not wanting this moment to end, he just lays there with his eyes closed; memorizing the real feeling of Hank playing with his hair and being so close to him again.