Ashley POV
The sounds of Eliza's promises filled my ears, never to leave me alone but to haunt me and serve as a terrible warning to the things I had willingly subjected myself to. I sat before Matthew and Corvina, ready to confess to them my unfaithfulness.
I remember it all so vividly now, how I flogged Eliza to kingdom come with Irina and then she turned around, sometime after she regained her strength and fingered me on the doorstep, leaving me a mess.
It was all last night and after that disgraceful scene they took me in silently, I showered and they slept in bed together. I didn't bother to join them as I usually do, I felt too ashamed to sleep between them. This morning they left quietly for work before I could wake up. I made lunch for their daughter and my kids, driving them to school but not coming in for work that day and called out from work because I was filled with so much guilt that I could only pace about and torture myself.
"I've acted terribly," I tell them. "I have been seeing Eliza, I don't know what's come over me but for it I am really sorry and I promise I'll leave now that I--"
Matthew scoffs. "No need for you to leave us, love, we want you here,"
I misunderstood them. "What?" I asked.
"You don't need to leave, you think your trysts with Eliza bother us? We've known for quite some time. I'll admit, the blow hurt us but it's only natural for you to act out your feelings, very quickly you'll get this out of your system," Corvina spoke indifferently toward me as though I were just another slide of glass before her, her voice monotone and lacking it's usual warmth.
They thought this had been some tantrum? Some phase? That I was merely acting out? This had to be one big joke, right? Everyone was looking at me as though I were some child or if not that then something to look over completely! How frustrating it was.
"But I cheated," I said.
I love my wife. No, correction: Ex-wife and was cheating with her on an emotional level other than physical.
"Between the hormones and the divorce being so fresh and her living next door, we can't blame you, can we?" Matthew asked.
But they could. I knew what I had done and had done everything on purpose, thinking it through, having the time to arrange these things with Eliza and I was getting off without so much as a slap across the cheek.
Something isn't right but I don't know what it is.
I feel sick, that much I am sure of. Eliza. . . I need Eliza. Now. She's the only one that can make sense of it.
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The next day
After another rouse with Eliza from yesterday, I called Dr. Tussaud for an emergency session and her son was able to fit us in for an appointment. I urged Eliza to come with me, she didn't raise any questions about it, only obliged me in my request and drove us into the office.
"I can't believe you came," I scoffed in disbelief.
"When I said I want us to grow old I meant it," Eliza said.
I smiled and had a glimmer of faith. I could almost believe she meant it if it weren't for her current track record but she's always meant everything she's said other than the cheating which she never attempted to hide.
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If I Lie : Book 2
Romance"I am yours, doesn't that mean anything to you?" I asked her. "I would never leave you even at your worst," but now was a time worse as ever; the bruises on my behind were proof and the tremble resonating throughout my body were screaming by her h...
