My Hero

Chapter 40

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So I am very excited for this chapter, and I don't know why but I can just tell its a good one. Here ya have...

CHAPTER 40!!

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Alex's POV

"I'm fine."

It's so weird that these two words can have a lot if meaning. I didn't know Harry was feeling this way. I stared into his eyes, hoping to find some light in them but they were dull. "And, I'm sorry I want to be the person that saves you. But I can't even save myself..." he broke off.

My eyes started to burn with tears but I didn't let them fall. Harry's smile faded into a straight line. "Harry, just please. C'mon I'm tak- What did I say just say to you?! Fuck off!" He yelled standing up but nearly fell. Maya stirred but didn't wake up.

Harry's POV

All I felt was sadness and a bit of anger. Why did this happen to Gemma? There is a reason behind everything, but what's this one?

Alex was beginning to say something but I wasn't listening so I cut her off. "What did I just say to you?! Fuck off!" I started to stand but had to grab a hold of Alex or I would've fallen.

Bathroom.

Blades.

Blood.

That's all I could think about. I started to walk towards the bathroom, with Alex trying to hold me back. The corners of my eyes were blurry until I realised that I was crying. I was about grab the door knob when Alex stood in front of it blocking the entrance. "Move." I glared down at her. "No. I'm not letting you hurt yourself like that." She shook her head. "You do it so get out of my way!" I didn't mean to, but I shoved her forcefully away from the door.

I opened the door and quickly locked it after. I turned the lights in and began my search.

I found a few blades under the sink and used those. My breath hitched as I slid the blade across my wrists. I heard more than one person banging on the door so I knew Alex and I woke the others. I made another cut, this one longer.

I let out a shaky breath. I think on the tenth one I dropped the blade. My hands were shaking uncontrollably. All of a sudden the door burst open, and standing there was Alex, Liam, Dylan, Louis and Niall. "Harry..." Niall looked on the verge of tears. Alex was sobbing and Dylan was trying to comfort her.

"Why?" Liam asked looking directly into my eyes. "Everything's a load of bullshit. Gemma's pregnant did you know?" I laughed.

"Harry, isn't that good news?" Louis asked. "No! It's not! She was fucking raped and now she's pregnant! You think that's good news?" I started to see black dots everywhere but I tried not to look like I'm going to faint. I hate myself.

No one said anything else, or I just didn't listen. Someone grabbed my wrist and put it in the running water.

"Harry."

"Harry."

"Harry?!"

I heard my voice being called but I didn't reply.

"Grab the keys."

The voices seemed distant. I started to lose my surroundings. I couldn't think straight. But one word was all I could think about as I collapsed on the bathroom floor.

Help.

Alex's POV

I took Harry's wrist with caution. He was already so hurt. I hate myself for not noticing before how damaged he was.

As I was watching the blood drain, he collapsed. Instead of seeing someone once happy, I saw someone completely different. "Liam! Please, Liam!" I shouted. At once he was by my side helping carry Harry out of the hotel into the car that was waiting outside for us.

We all piled in without uttering a single word. I was shaking, holding on to Harry's barely conscious body. We made it to the emergency room in five minutes. Liam quickly hurried to my side and took Harry out of my arms. The hospital was nearly vacant and only a few nurses were there, but as soon as they saw Harry about ten nurses came to help.

They put him on a hospital bed and down off into a room.

I crying and shaking, not bothering to quiet down. I was beside Niall as I sobbed onto his chest. He tried to comfort me, but it wasn't like when Harry did it to me.

Eventually I just went to sleep not bothering, to wipe away all the smudged makeup.

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I woke up in a hospital chair, alone with someone on a bed. I realised that it was Harry and he was awake and staring at me. "You're awake." He croaked. "Yeah, I'm glad you are." I said looking at his bandaged wrists.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have acted the way I did. I'm such an idiot." Harry apologised. I shook my head. "It's fine. I want to know how I got in here though." I furrowed my eyebrows. "Liam brought you in moments after you fell asleep. I haven't gotten any sleep so I stayed up and watched you sleep." He explained. I nodded.

After a few moments silence I asked Harry why he cut himself. "Harry, why'd you hurt yourself? Why did you decide you wanted to make your pain go away in such an awful way?"

"Why do you hurt yourself? Why did you decide you wanted to make pain go away in such an awful way? The same reason why you do it. You wanted to relieve yourself of this pain and you happen to find yourself near some pair of scissors or whatever it is, and you take out your emotions with that."

He closed his eyes for a moment and re-opened them. "Come here." He whispered. I didn't move. "Come here." He said a little more forcefully. I shook my head. Harry sighed. We didn't talk for the rest of the day.

When are things going to get better?

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A/N

I finished this like in two hours but I had a party to go to, so yeah.

Ilysm 😘❤💋 wear a smile my Beautiful Warriors!!