"Just leave me alone derek" I say as he walks after me down the stairs. "Meredith I'm sorry baby, please" he holds my arm gently.
"Why are you texting that slut?" I look at him. "It was about football and cheer.. she just wanted to know-" he says. "I don't believe you" I say.
"Mer, don't go" he puts his hands on my cheeks. I rip his hands away. "You know what? Date her instead.. everyone knows you two are perfect for eachother anyway.. I'm done" I leave.
"Babe! Meredith!" He yells from the door as I walk home, crying all the way there.
Flashforward:
I walk into his hospital room. I stop, smiling small as I see the whole football team there, holding gifts for him.
"Hi" I say. "Meredith! Hey, how you doing?" They all walk over to me. I hug Mark. He wraps his arm around me. "A little better" I shrug.
"You want us to leave you alone?" One of them ask. "No! It's okay, I just came to sit with him for a bit but I'm glad you guys are visiting him too" I say.
"Although he'd be pissed I let anyone see him without his hair styled" I run my fingers through it. Mark chuckles softly.
"Um, mer.. us guys were wondering if you'd like to come our with us? Get something to eat" Mark asks. "Oh, um.. I dont think so.. thanks" I shake my head.
"When was the last time you ate?" He whispers. "Um" I try to think. "You're coming, okay?" He says. "Fine" I sigh.
I kiss Derek's head softly. Mark smiles small at me. We leave. "Can you go to my house first? I look like crap" I say. "Nah, you're still hot" one of the guys say. I chuckle.
We arrive at my house. "I'll be right back" I say. I go inside. I get changed quickly into a dress and brush through my hair. I put on Derek's football jacket that he gave me, matching theirs that they're all wearing over my dress.
I go downstairs and get into the car. "Stop" I laugh as they all whistle. I lean my head against Marks shoulder.
I hold the jacket sleeve to my nose, smelling it. I close my eyes, smiling slightly as I take in dereks scent.
We arrive at a cafe and walk in. We all sit at a booth. They order a bunch of food. "You guys are like pigs.. how do you eat that much?" I giggle.
"Your boyfriend normally eats the most out of all of us!" One of them say. I giggle. "Well, he'd usually sneak some food in a container to bring back for me" I grin. They gasp.
Flashforward over:
Me, izzie and cristina walk into the cafe. I roll my eyes as I see the football team sat in their usual booth.
"Hey mer!" "Meredith!" "Hey!" The team says. "Hi guys" I smile. "Aren't you gonna sit with us?" They ask. The door opens and a few girls from the cheer team walk in. I roll my eyes.
"Um, no" I shake my head. My blood boils as the cheer captain Tiffany sits next to derek in the middle of the booth, squeezing past all the other guys to get there.
I go over and sit with cristina and izzie. I make eye contact with derek. I look away again. I grab my phone. I scroll through my camera roll. I grin as I find a nude picture of myself that I took a while ago.
Me: *picture*
Derek: fuck mer, don't do that
Me: if you're planning on fucking her then I could at least help you out by making you hard first, coz its not like she's going to
Derek: don't be ridiculous. Come and sit with me baby
Me: don't call me that.. we're not together.
Derek: baby baby baby baby
I giggle, looking up at him. He smiles. I signal for him to come over. He says something and the guys get up so he can get out of the booth.
Tiffany rolls her eyes. He walks over. I smile, standing up. I giggle as he hugs me, picking me up. He kisses me.
I giggle against his lips as the team whistles. He puts me down, pulling away slowly. "Do you have any more pictures like that? Dirty girl" he smirks. I giggle.
"You can see the real thing tonight" I say. "Yes!" He throws me over his shoulder. I squeal. "No, not now!" I giggle.
"No! Ahh!" I squeal as he runs out of the cafe with me on his shoulder still. "Baby! Stop!" I giggle hysterically as he puts me down infront of his car. He pushes me up against it, kissing me.
Flashforward:
"You okay?" One of the guys ask as I just stare at something blankly. "Mhm? Oh, yeah" I shrug.
"I know.. I think we should get you drunk" Alex gives me his beer. They serve them in here because they're friends with the owner.
"I don't think that's a good id- okay" Mark says as I start drinking it. "Mer slow down" Mark says as I down it. The rest of the guys start cheering me on.
I smile, putting the glass down on the table once I'm finished. I look at one of the other guys. He passes me his beer. I smile, drinking it.
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Mark holds onto me, helping me inside. "Meredith" Carolyn walks over. "Carol!" I hug her. "Woah, careful" she holds me up as I stumble slightly.
"Mark what the hell" she says. "I'm sorry, I tried to tell her not to" he says.
"Can you help her up to dereks room?" She asks. I hold onto him tight as he picks me up bridal style. He carries me upstairs.
He lays me down on dereks bed. "Mark" I say as he's about to leave. He turns around, walking back over. "Did he tell you.. that he was struggling with his mental health?" I whisper. "No, he didn't" he says.
"I knew" I mumble. "What?" He whispers, sitting next to me. "H-he told me he'd stopped.. he'd do it between his thighs so nobody could see.. I thought he'd stopped" I cry.
"Hey, its not your fault.. come here" he hugs me. I cry into his shoulder. "He just- he told me not to tell anyone.. I thought I was being a good girlfriend" I sob. He just hugs me until I cry myself to sleep.
