Me and Derek finally get home from my grandmas house. We're in my bedroom, in bed and I'm ontop of him. He's already inside of me and I'm completely naked, but he still has his hoodie on.
I moan softly against his lips as we kiss eachother passionately whilst I grind against him. "You feel good" I pull away from him slowly. "So do you" he moans.
I grab the bottom of his hoodie and pull it over his head. My eyes widen slightly but I try to hide it as soon as I can when I see the scars all over his arms. He grabs my hips and lifts me up. He thrusts his hips up, against mine. He moans softly.
I put my hands on his shoulders to steady myself, but all I can do is stare at his arms. All the thoughts leave my head and I let out a deep moan as he hits the right spot. My eyes roll back and my head falls back. "Fuck baby girl" he groans.
I fall forwards, against his body. I hug his neck. He groans, putting his hands on my hips. "Hold yourself up for me darling" he whispers. I whine, sitting back up straight. "Good girl, that's it" he closes his eyes, moaning my name softly under his breath as he speeds up.
He grabs me again and flips us over, so he's ontop of me. He moans louder as he thrusts in and out of me faster. I moan louder too, overwhelmed with the pleasure he's giving me.
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"I love you so much" he kisses the side of my head as we cuddle together under the covers. "Do you?" I stroke his side gently. "What do you mean?" He looks into my eyes. I grab his arm and look at the scars before looking into his eyes. "Don't start baby, please" he sighs.
"We just had incredible sex and I just wanna cuddle and go to sleep, I don't want to argue" he cuddles into me. "I don't want to argue either, but you've really upset me" I say. "I'm sorry" he says.
"Derek, I thought you could talk to me about this now.. I thought that you'd stopped" I say. "I'm sorry baby" he hugs me tighter. I sigh.
"I'm really disappointed in you" I push him away from me gently. His whole face drops and he looks at me with so much sadness in his eyes. My heart drops.. I feel so bad.
"No, wait! Derek!" I stop him quickly before he can get out of bed. "I didn't mean that" I put my hand on his cheek. "I didn't mean it" I kiss him softly. "I didn't mean to let you down, I'm so sorry" he whispers tearfully.
"You didn't! Baby you didn't, I'm just worried about you" I hug him. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry" I tear up. "I'm not crying, I'm fine.. baby, I'm fine" he wipes his tears. I cry harder.
Me and Derek are so bad in situations like this.. because all we want to do is comfort eachother. We hate seeing eachother upset. I cry basically every time he cries. I just don't like to see him hurt.
"I love you so much.. it just hurts me to see you hurting" I put my hands on his cheeks. "Don't leave me please, I won't do it again" he pulls me closer. "I'm not gonna leave you" I hug his neck tightly. "Promise" he says. "I promise, I love you so much" I squeeze him. He sniffles.
"So.. you'll still marry me?" He puts his hands on my waist and looks into my eyes. "Derek, I'm not gonna dump you for being a little bit broken, I love you either way" I say. He smiles. "I love you so much mer" he squeezes me.
"When did you do this, baby?" I hold his arms. "..a few days ago" he says. "Was it when we didn't see eachother for a few days?" I ask. He nods slowly.
Derek is SO reliant on me. He just needs to be with me all the time, or it's like he changes fully as a person. When we're not together, he's depressed and suicidal and he cuts himself.. but when we're together, he's the life of every party, the funniest guy in every room and just.. happy. It really confuses me. Is he putting on an act for me?
"We're gonna stay together for a while, okay? Every night" I put my hands on his cheeks. He smiles, his eyes lighting up. "Is that okay?" I ask. He nods enthusiastically. I smile small. I kiss his lips deeply. "Can we sleep?" He asks. I nod. I cuddle into him and close my eyes. We both try and go to sleep. I don't until much after him.
