I've not seen Derek in a couple of weeks because he's been off school ill, and he's not invited me over either so I just haven't seen him. We've been texting a lot though. I normally would've come over either way, invite or not.. but I've been hanging out with my friends a lot so didn't.
Earlier I got a call from Carolyn. It sounds like he's not doing too good. I had no idea. I decided to go to his house straight away after leaving school.
I've just arrived and I walk straight in. "Hi Carolyn" I smile at her as I walk into the living room. "Hi sweetheart, dereks just upstairs" she says. "Okay" I smile. I go up.
I knock on the door. "What?" He says quietly. "Babe it's me.. can I come in?" I ask. "No! Go away Meredith" he says. I hear him get out of bed quickly and walk into his bathroom. Rude?
I walk in. I sit on his bed. His room is so messy. I open his bedside drawers and look through them. That's where I've found blades before from when he's been self harming. I don't find anything, thank god.
I hear the shower turn on. "Baby?" I say. "I'll be ten minutes" he says. "Okay" I say. I get up and go downstairs. "He's just locked himself in his bathroom" I sit next to Carolyn on the couch. "Probably because he looks like shit and he doesn't want you to see him like that" Kathleen says.
"He does?" I look at her. She nods. I sigh. I get back up and go upstairs again. I go into his room, then straight into the bathroom.
I close the door behind me slowly and pull off my clothes. I get in the shower with him before he even notices I'm there. "Hey" I whisper, putting my hands on his waist. He turns around and looks at me. He's not shaven. His beard is grown out slightly.
"I missed you" I reach up and hug his neck. He immediately hugs my waist tight, pulling me into his arms.
We pull away from eachother slowly after a couple of minutes. I scan his naked body and smile. "Derek I'm so proud of you" I say. There's no new scars on him.
"Can I have a kiss?" I put my hands on his cheeks. He leans down and kisses me deeply. "I'm not feeling too good" he whispers. "I know darling" I whisper.
"Can you help me?" He asks nervously. "Derek.. of course I will" I sigh. "Sit on the floor" I say. He looks at me for approval as he moves down. "It's okay, sit" I smile. He sits on the floor. I grab his razor and shaving cream before straddling his thighs, sitting on his lap.
I give him a cuddle before starting on his beard, shaving it very carefully for him. Once I'm done with his beard, we also clean eachothers hair and bodies. I didn't actually need to wash my hair, but it seemed to make him happy so I let him do it.
It's about half an hour later and we're just cuddling under the water, relaxed in eachothers arms. "You wanna cuddle in bed?" I ask. He nods. I turn off the shower and we get out and wrap towels around ourselves.
"You did a great job baby" he says, looking at his stubble in the mirror. I smile. "You look so handsome, I could squish you" I hug his waist. He smiles at me. His smile is so weak, but at least it's there. I miss my happy boyfriend. I'm gonna cheer him up, if it's the last thing I do.
I hold his hand and lead him back to his room. "Just get in bed naked" I pull his towel off of him. He does as I say. I put my wet hair into a low pony tail before getting in bed with him.
I get ontop of him. "We haven't had sex in two weeks" I brush his wet hair back, out of his face with my hands. "I'm not really in the mood, darling I'm so sorry" he whispers as I lean down to kiss his neck. "Oh" I pull away from him. He's never not in the mood for me.
"That's okay" I get off of him. "I'm really sorry" he hugs my waist. "Never be sorry for that baby" I hug him back.
"Are your anxiety pills making you feel strange again?" I stroke his hair gently. "Kinda" he says. He couldn't have sex for like two months when he first started taking the pills for his depression and anxiety. It was weird. Nothing turned him on. He was really frustrated and embarrassed, but I assured him that it's okay and I'd never ever judge him.
"I switched to a higher dose three weeks ago" he says. "I know" I kiss his cheek softly. "I'm sorry" he says. "Baby.. stop apologising" I squeeze him tight. "I don't like letting you down.. you wanted sex" he sighs. "I wanted to pleasure my boyfriend" I run my hand down his belly. "Really?" He whispers. I nod.
I smile brightly as I grab his dick gently in my hand and I feel it go harder. "You wanna?" I hop back on him. He nods. I smile, leaning down to kiss him.
