It's been a week since we came back home from the vacation. I haven't seen meredith since. She's been so busy with catching up on her schoolwork.
Today I decided to go to her house to see her. I knock on the door. "Oh, hi derek.. meredith is upstairs" Ellis says. I go up.
"Hi baby" I say, walking into her bedroom. "Hi derek, I didn't know you were coming over" she says. She's sat at her desk working.
"I missed you" I walk over. I lean down and kiss her head, putting my hands on her shoulders.
"Can I talk to you?" I ask. "Make it quick" she sighs, turning around. "Oh, um.. it doesn't matter" I say, not wanting to bother her.
"Just tell me, baby" she says. I sit on her bed. She moves her chair infront of me. She holds my hands.
"I needed to see you" I look down. "Why?" She asks. I hold my arms out to her. She sits on my lap instead. I hug her.
"I missed you" I say. My mental health has been shit these past few days. I'm not going to tell her. I don't want her to feel pressured into talking to me more or checking up on me.
"I missed you too" she says. "I'm sorry I haven't been talking to you a lot.. I've been really stressed with all the work I have to do" she hugs me tighter.
"Can you take a little break?" I ask. She nods. "Have you been okay baby?" She furrows her brows, putting her hands on my cheeks.
"Yeah" I say. "You haven't been shaving" She says. "Does it look bad?" I ask. "No, but you always shave" she says. I shrug.
"Baby, you don't look good" she says. "Oh, thanks" I say sarcastically. She looks down, holding my arms in her hands. She looks at my wrists.
"Take off your trousers" she says. "Meredith grey" I tease. "Just do it" she says. "No, mer.. leave me alone" I say.
"I just wanted to come and see my girlfriend.. why are you being like this?" I gently pull her off of me. I stand up.
"I'm gonna go" I kiss her softly before walking away. "No, not until you show me" she grabs my hand. I turn around.
"Please" she says quietly. I don't want her to get upset. I undo my trousers. "I haven't hurt myself, meredith" I show her my thighs.
She pulls up my shirt slightly to look at my stomach, aswell as the sleeves of my shirt to look at the top of my arms.
"Happy?" I ask, sorting out my clothes. She hugs my neck tight. I hug her back.
"I just care about you, I'm not trying to-" she says. "I know baby" I cut her off.
"But I made a promise to you.. and I'd never break it" I kiss her. "Okay.. I'm sorry" she says. "Its okay" I say.
"It just scares me.. why aren't you taking care of yourself?" She puts her hands on my cheeks. "I feel like shit" I say quietly.
"You should've called me, baby" she says. "I didn't want to disturb you" I say.
"I would've come to your house, showered with you and shaved your beard" she says. I smile. "You're perfect" I kiss her.
"A perfect girlfriend would've checked up on you" she sighs. "I'm not a child.. I should be able to look after myself, meredith" I sigh.
"I know how bad your mental health gets.. I should've checked" she mutters under her breath, looking down. "Stop.. this is why I didn't want to talk about it.. you always blame yourself" I hug her again.
"When we get married" she says. I pull away, looking at her. "Where will we live?" She asks. "I don't know, baby.. maybe our own apartment" I say. She smiles.
"Are you mad at me?" She asks. "Of course I'm not.. its nice how much you care" I say. She kisses me.
"You are my number one priority.. if you ever need me, then call me" she puts her hands on my cheeks, looking into my eyes. "Okay baby" I whisper. She smiles.
"Do my homework for me" she says. "Fuck no, I haven't even done my own" I say. She giggles.
I sit in her chair at her desk. "When was the last time you slept, my love?" I look at her. She shrugs.
"You should take a break" I walk over to her. I turn off the light. She's already in her pyjamas. I pull off my shirt and trousers.
We climb into her bed. She cuddles into me. "Its not fun being away from you for so long" she says. "I agree" I sigh.
"We're definitely too attached to eachother" she says. I chuckle. "Is that a bad thing?" I ask. "Sometimes.. we can't be together all the time" she says. "True" I say.
"But I like knowing how much you love me" she says. "So do I" I put my hand on her cheek. I kiss her lips.
"What are you doing?" I ask as she climbs ontop of me. She gently pulls on my arms. I sit up.
She puts her hands on my cheeks, looking into my eyes. I smile. "You know how obsessed I am with you?" She says. I grin. I peck her lips softly.
"I'm obsessed with you" I hug her. She giggles. I chuckle. She kisses me. "Go to sleep" I push my nose against hers, grinning. She giggles, looking into my eyes.
I lay down again and pull her down with me. She cuddles into me, closing her eyes. I run my hand up and down her spine slowly until she falls asleep in my arms.
