I'm at school, sat with mark on the couch in the break room. I smile as meredith comes in with cristina. I haven't seen her in two whole days.
"She looks beautiful" I smile. She's wearing a blue dress that I bought her.
"Hi derek" she walks over. She leans down and kisses my cheek. "Hi" I smile wider. She goes to the other side of the room to talk to the cheer team.
"Did she tell you all the drama?" Mark asks. "No?" I look at him. "One of the girls is pregnant.. and all the other girls want her off the team, so she doesn't get injured or anything.. but meredith is trying to get everyone to agree to letting her stay for a few more months" he explains.
"She's the sweetest" I say. "She is" he smiles. The bell rings. I sigh. "Come on, we have practice" he stands up. I walk over to meredith. She stops talking and just smiles at me as I hug her from behind.
"I'll miss you" I stroke her sides. "I'll miss you too, will you call me tonight please?" She looks back at me. "Of course baby" I whisper.
She turns around in my arms and kisses me. "Are you sure you don't want me to come over after I leave my grandparents?" She asks. "Its too late for you to be taking a cab alone, plus I'll be too tired anyway" I say. "Okay" she says.
I sigh as I see the frown on her face. "I'll talk to you later baby, i love you so much" I give her a hug and a few kisses before leaving.
Merediths pov:
I've been asking derek to hang out for the past two days and he's rejected me every single time.
It's actually starting to really upset me. Plus this means I can't watch him and check on him to make sure he's not hurting himself.
"I'm sorry girls, I'll be right back" I say. "Okay" they say. I go after him. "Babe" I hold his hand. "Oh, are you okay?" He asks, turning to look at me. We're in the hallway.
"Why don't you want to hang out with me?" I frown. He sighs. "I do want to, baby.. we've just both been busy lately" he says. I roll my eyes.
"You're making me feel bad" I look at him through my glossy eyes. "I don't mean to, I'm so sorry" he pulls me into his arms. I sniffle, hiding my face in his chest.
"You hurt my feelings" I push him away. "Oh, mer! Please" he sighs as I walk away. I wipe my eyes before walking back into the break room.
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I'm sat on my bed scrolling through my phone. I smile small as I get a message off of derek. I check it.
Derek: meredith I'm so so sorry for hurting your feelings. It wasn't my intention at all. I just really need some space right now and I didn't know how to tell you without hurting you so I lied. That obviously didn't work. I understand if you're angry. I love you so much baby.
I sigh. I know he's going through something right now, but I can't help if he doesn't talk to me. It hurts to know he's hurting.
Me: come over? Please.
Derek: baby..
Me: just for ten minutes?
Derek: I'll be there in five darling
Me: I love you
I smile, going downstairs as soon as I hear the doorbell. I open the door. He steps forwards and hugs me tight. I put my hand on his cheek and kiss him.
"I love you so much" I hug him tighter. "I love you so much" he whispers.
He reaches down and holds my hand. I lead him up to my room. He sits on my bed. I close the door and sit next to him.
"Do you want to talk to me about anything?" I put my hand on his jaw. "No thank you" he whispers. "Okay.. but I'm here whenever you're ready, alright?" I say. "Okay" he whispers.
"You want a hug?" I whisper. I can tell he's getting upset. He nods and immediately hugs my waist. "Its okay.. I didn't mean to push, I'm sorry" I whisper, stroking his hair gently. He sniffles quietly.
I climb ontop of him, straddling him so I can hug him even tighter. He pulls me into his arms, hiding his face in the crease of my neck.
"I'm sorry" he cries quietly into my skin. "For what?" I whisper. "Disappointing you again" he whispers. "You could never Disappoint me derek, I'm so proud of you no matter what" I squeeze him.
"I should go before I embarrass myself even more" he pulls away slowly. "Don't be embarrassed, you're my Fiance, if you're upset then you can cry infront of me and I'll comfort you" I say.
He gently moves me off of his lap and stands up. "Derek, I'm not letting you leave when you're this upset honey" I hold his hand before he can walk away. "I'm fine" he says.
"You can't just leave when we're married, you know?" I look into his eyes. He sighs, sitting back down. "I know" he says. "I'm here for you, sweetie" I hug him again.
"I don't know what's wrong with me" he whispers. "Nothing is wrong with you" I hug him tighter. He sighs. "You're just hurting.. and that's okay, because you will eventually get better, and when you do I'll be here for you.. just like I always am" I whisper into his ear.
"Can I stay the night?" He asks. "Yes please" I say tearfully, nodding enthusiastically. He smiles at me.
"Do you have any of my pyjamas here still?" He asks. I go and get some and he gets changed into them. We get into bed and he cuddles into me straight away. We soon fall asleep.
