This morning I woke up and Derek was still asleep, so I decided to make us breakfast. I'm in the kitchen, in just one of his shirts. We're home alone at his house.
I smile, looking as I hear him walking downstairs. I go to see him, but stop in the kitchen doorway. He looks SO SAD.
"Baby, why do you look so sad?" I run over to him and hug him. His face lights up. "Mer! I thought you left" he squeezes me. "I didn't leave.. I was making breakfast" I smile at him.
"Is that why you looked so depressed?" I giggle. He smiles, nodding. "You're so cute!" I laugh, hugging him tighter.
"I'd never leave you whilst youre asleep" I say. "I thought you did" he picks me up. I giggle. I kiss him. "You want your breakfast?" I ask. He nods.
Dereks pov:
I follow her to the kitchen after putting her down. "No!" She whines as she sees that her eggs have burnt. "It's alright darling" I chuckle.
"It's okay! I'll have the burnt ones" I plate them up for her. I look at her and sigh as I see she's upset. "It's okay" I put my hands on her waist. She bursts into tears.
"I just wanted to make you breakfast" she sniffles. "I know, it's alright" I pull her into my arms. "I'm sorry" she pulls away and wipes her tears. "It's okay baby" I smile.
"No, you have the nice ones" she switches our plates. "No way" I switch them again. She pouts at me, tearing up. "Fine" I switch them again. I'll just feed her from my plate.
She plates up the rest of the food too, and I set the table. We sit down next to eachother, but I soon pull her onto my lap.
"It's delicious babygirl" I kiss her cheek. She grins. I feed her another bite of egg from my plate. She smiles, eating it. "Thank you so much" I squish her cute little face, making her giggle.
"I love you so much, you know that?" I kiss her lips. "I love you too" she goes bright red. I chuckle. "I love that I can still make you nervous" I grin. "no matter how long we've been together, you always give me so many butterflies.. you make me feel amazing" she says.
"Good, I never want you to feel any other way.. you should always know how much I appreciate you baby" I say. "I definitely know" she kisses my cheek.
"You fed me all of your eggs" she giggles, getting off of my lap and putting the plates in the sink. I grin. I didn't think she'd realise. "I KNOW you, Derek" she grins. I walk over to her and kiss her passionately.
"You always put me before yourself" she says as I lift her onto the kitchen island. "Because youre my girl" I smile at her. "You should put yourself first sometimes" she hugs my neck. "But.. I love you" I say.
"Do you love yourself?" She smiles small at me. "I don't even like myself" I chuckle. "Baby" she sighs. "I love you enough for the both of us" she grins. "Good" I smile.
"I'm gonna make you love yourself, Derek" she hops down from the counter. "Why?" I groan, following her. "Because it'll help" she leads me upstairs, to my room.
"Mer I don't want to do this" I say as she pulls me infront of a mirror. "Please baby.. for me" she pouts. "..okay" I sigh.
"Do you think youre handsome?" She asks, putting her hand on my cheek. I look at myself in the mirror, then at her. "No way near as good looking as you" I kiss her. "Der" she sighs. "I mean it" I say.
Meredith's pov:
"I don't understand why you don't see how handsome you are" I pull off his shirt. "I'm not.. not anymore" he runs his hands down his arms, where his scars are. "Derek, I told you that your scars don't change anything.. youre just as good looking, and it shows how strong you are" I say.
"It shows how weak I am" he says. "Never say that!" I yell at him. "You're the strongest person" I say. "No, please don't" he sighs as I tug on his pyjama bottoms. "Please?" I ask. He sighs, giving me a small nod. I pull them down.
"You're so gorgeous, Der" I smile, running my hand down his abs slowly as I look at him in the mirror. He has a frown on his face still.
"I love every part of you, Derek" I step infront of him and hug him. "Every single part" I run my hands down his sides slowly. "I am NOT good enough for you, mer" he sighs. "Yes you are" I whine.
"Derek, I'm marrying you.. I spend almost all of my time with you.. I let you make love to me literally whenever you want.. I'd do anything for you baby... I don't know how else to show you how much I love you" I say. "I know you love me.. I know" he strokes my cheeks with his thumbs.
"I just don't think that I deserve it" he says. "You do!" I burst into tears. "I'm upsetting you.. I'm so sorry" he sighs.
"You scare me, Der.. I just want you to be happy so you'll stay with me" she wipes her tears. "I'm not going anywhere" I kiss her lips a few times softly.
"I don't understand why youre not happy" she sobs. "I'm so sorry Meredith" I hug her tight. I pick her up and hold her close. "I didn't mean to upset you.. I really didn't" I sit with her on my lap, rubbing her back slowly.
"I want you to be happy.. it hurts me so bad that youre not" she says softly. "You make me happy, mer.. I promise that I'm so so so happy with you" I say. "But I want you to always be happy" she says.
"Please stop crying" I wipe her tears. Seeing her cry is literally the worst feeling in the world. I have a huge pit in my stomach. I feel sick. I shouldn't be making her sad. "I'm so sorry.. I'm really sorry" I tear up slightly. "Don't cry" her bottom lip trembles. "You stop crying" I say in a silly voice, which makes her giggle. I smile.
"Can you try and be happier.. take your pills, see a therapist and just try your best to have fun.. for me?" She whispers. "I'd do anything for you" I say. She smiles.
"Do you agree youre hot?" She smiles, touching my belly. "Yes baby.. I agree with whatever you say" I kiss her. She giggles. I smile. She kisses me softly before hugging me tight. We cuddle for a while.
