Closets Or Not| j.sims+c.johnson

Chapter 14

Jakes POV
A Week Later

"Jakey wake up." I hear in my ear softly and I groan. I know who it is but I don't want to move. I snuggled closer to Casey and he sighed.

"Jake come one we have to go to the recording studio." I rolled a bit and he chuckled. Things had been good between Casey and I. I didn't know why but for some reason he had seemed to change. I had also told Charlie that I was in love with Casey. And to be honest I was sure most of the lads thought Ellie was my girlfriend. We were leaving Spain today and I was gunna miss her. I really hoped that she would come with us but I knew that wasn't gunna happen. The world isn't that good.

"Okay give me ten minutes to get ready." I say and stand. My arms and legs are both covered because I can't stand the thought of Casey or any of the lads or worse the fans... finding out about this. Casey nods and gets up. He stretches and I can see the toned abs on his stomach. My breath hitches.

"You alright?" Casey asks as I find myself not breathing. I take in a breath and nod. Then. I run my fingers threw my hair. He smiles for a moment but soon his gaze drops. I wonder what he's looking at. His gaze isn't at me but follows my arm as I put it back down. Then I notice that when I raise my arm you can see the cuts on my arm. I swear in my head.

As I look back up I see the door slam shut. I turn and punch at the air. I'm such a fuck up. He's gunna tell the lads. They're gunna... they're gunna kick me out of the band. Well shit. I don't want to go home. I can't.

I go to the bathroom and begin putting the make up on my arms. All up them. Hoping that none of them will notice. I look down and when I can't see then anymore I stop and go to get dressed. I grab a t shirt and a pair of shorts. Then I grab a bandana and tie it in my hair. I look in the mirror and smile for a faint moment.

"Jake you coming mate?!" I hear Barclay yell and I sigh. I'm never gunna be ready but I guess I have too be. I grabs light jacket and my phone. Then as I make it to the door I run bald and grab my phone. Then I run down the stairs and meet the lads in the living room. I look around and I can't find Casey though. I keep looking but nothing.

"Where Casey?" I ask and Charlie automatically looks down. I sigh.

"Already on his way to the studio. He didn't seem to happy. Anything happen?" Barclay asks and I shake my head. I hate lying to them, but if I said yes then I'd have to explain what happened, and that wasn't gunna happen.

"Then lets go." Barclay says mad claps his hands once. We all laugh at his gesture. We then all make our way down stairs. And out of the hotel. Outside there are some fans. I smile and take about ten to fifteen pictures and some fans hand us things like notes. I gladly take them and hung as many as I can. We finally get in the cab and Reece groans. I look over and his hair is a mess. I smile.

"They pulled out my bloody hair." He said and Tom gives his a look. I smile. Next to me is Charlie and I'm by the door, seeing as I was the last one in.

We drive and drive till we pull into the packing lot of the studio. I get out and pull my sunglasses on. I wait for all the guys to get out. Then we all walk in together. Nodding to the security guard. He smiles and tips his hat.

"Hay mate." James says to Casey as we enter. I say behind the guys as they all file in. I also keep my head down and just go to the recoding room.

"Actually James is gunna go first." The manager says and I nod. I leave and some how end up next to Casey. He keeps glancing at me. But I won't dare look at him.

"How long till Jake or I go?" Casey asks and the manager tells him about the minutes. He nods and grabs my wrist. I cringe at first but try not to show it. He pulls me out into the hall and then into an empty room.

He paces around and around. His had is in his hair. He doesn't look at me but I can see his muscles tense as he breathes.

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A/N

Just finished this in the middle of Science!!! Don't hate me Jo!!!

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