Closets Or Not| j.sims+c.johnson

Chapter 26

Jakes POV

How could he want you?

Freak

Faggot

Druggie

Train Wreck

That voice was back. My legs were pulled to my chest and sighed. I was alone and in my room. Casey had left about 3 hours ago with Barclay, Tom, James and Chris.

Reece and Charlie left with Julie, Charlie's Mom about half an hour ago. They went out to go shopping. Then they were going to go out to lunch with Reece's mom Lyndsey. I wasn't sure if they were having a sleep over at one of there houses or not. But all I knew was I was alone.

And I felt like shit. Which was normal for me when I'm alone. I love Casey but I don't understand how he can love me. He told my frequently that he did. And it always made my heart flutter and gave me hope. But in the back my of my head is a voice that keeps telling me that he's lying.

I heard the front door shut downstairs and then I heard voices. I lifted my head and stood. I could hear Toms guitar and knew that him, Barc, James, Chris and Case were home. I needed to see Casey.

I walked down that stairs and soon found Chris in the kitchen. He smiled at me as I walked by ad I smiled back. I would have talked but I was on a mission. I needed Casey.

I found Barc, Tom and James all in the living room. But I couldn't find Casey. I scrunched my noes and scratch my head.

"What's wrong Jakey?" I look up to meet Toms gaze. I take one last look around the room. Then look back at him.

"Casey I can't find him." I say with much disappointment. He laughs and shakes his head.

"Casey said he had someone he needed to meet. He said he'd be back in a couple hours." I narrow my eyes ad nod my head rigidly. None of the boys ask what's wrong as I go to my room once again. I went back to how I was. Looking out the window and waiting for Casey.

Your fucking pathetic

Can't fucking do anything without someone who doesn't even love you

He's just pitying you

I sigh and glance out the window again. I hated this. The voice in my head was right. I was pathetic. I always will be pathetic. I need Casey and I wish I didn't. All the boys knew that I was pathetic.

I glanced up out the window and saw Casey walking down the street. He's walking down the street holding hands with a blonde. I felt fear and hurt rise in my chest. He couldn't could he. I knew that Casey didn't have any female siblings.

Ha I told you

He doesn't love you

Fucking pathetic

I heard the front door open downstairs and I didn't move at all. I kept my arms rapped righted around myself.

"Jakey? Babe?" how dare he. He knows you love him so he tells you. Even if he is lying right to your face. I clench my eyes as the door to our room opens. I then look up at Casey. His face drops as he sees me.

"Are you alright Jakey?" he comes over and tries to grab me. I know I shouldn't. But what can you do when the only person who can make you feel better is the one causing all the pain your in?

*Casey's POV*

He shakes his head and I feel pain in my chest. I grab onto him and kiss his head. I knew Jake had problems and I just hoped he would tell me about them. That he would be okay. I hoped that he hadn't-

"Jake did you relapse?" my voice isn't ever a whisper and he doesn't answer. I feel tears in my eyes. Please no if he had it was my fault. My fault for not being there for him.

"N-no but- I almost did. Casey I-" he stopped his words ad I scrunched my noes and narrowed my eyes.

"What Jakey? Baby I love you please tell me." My voice cracked and I wasn't ashamed of it I wanted him to know I loved him. That wasn't going to change.

"I saw you with- the boys came back and I went I find you but it couldn't. They told me that you said you had plans. Then- I- well. I saw you with a girl and I- Casey are you cheating on me? His words hit me hard. I wasn't cheating on him. I had gotten that girl Ellie a plane ticket and she was downstairs waiting.

"Jake I'm not cheating on you. Come down stairs." I say tugging him up. He nods smally and he comes to me. I grab his hand and pull him out of our room and hope that he still not thinking that I'm cheating on him. He keeps his head down as we go to the living room.

"Jake this is who I was hanging out with." He looks up and his eyes catch Ellie's. His eyes widen and he runs to her. Now I'm sure he doesn't think I'm cheating on him.

"Casey." He looks at me while hugging her.

"I love you." I smile at him and kiss his head.

"I love you too. Now I get ready. You and Ellis are having a day to yourselves. I'm paying." I kiss him and he smiles. Then runs off and I look at Ellie. She smiles.

"Your a good boyfriend." I nod and thank her. I just wish I could believe her.

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A/N

I'm sorry again for not updating. I'm almost done with this book. I do know what I'm doing from here to the end so updates should be good.

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