Closets Or Not| j.sims+c.johnson

Chapter 23

Jakes POV

I was nervous. I had just been released from the hospital and I was nervous. Casey held my hand until we made it to the door. Even then he stood close as we walked to our car.

"Hey, your still Jake. The boys still love you." He says and squeezes my hand. I smile and look down. I sure hope he's right. The boys are my family. And my sister and mom are here too so can you blame me for being nervous? No its natural. I haven't seen my mom in a couple months. And I haven't seen Syd for longer than that maybe. I mean I face time and Skype but its not the same.

Casey drove seeing as I was advised not to drive for the next couple weeks. Tomarrow, I had learned we were flying back. We had been in Spain for almost three weeks. I missed home and I wanted to be somewhere I knew.

But what if we got back and everything changed? What if Casey and I went back to the way they were. I didn't want that, not at all. I finally had him. I didn't want to loose him. I couldn't handle that. I sigh and pull my knees to my chest. Casey glances over and places a hand on my knee. I don't look at him and I hear him sigh.

We pull into the drive way ad I get out. Casey follows slowly and I fell my hands shake. How was I nervous? This is family. I sigh and put my hand on the door knob. Casey places a hand on my lower back and I almost jump. I then open the door quickly and I sigh.

"Jake!" Sydney's arms are around my waist as soon as I'm in the door. I panicked at first but then smiled at her. She hugged me and looked up.

"No one would tell me what happened." She said and I sighed. I patted her head and looked around Syd let go of me and everyone law came over. Mom first, she hugged me and gripped my hair. I wasn't sure if the boys told her exactly what happened but I hoped not. She held my face in her hands.

"I'm glad your feeling better." She said and I knew that they hadn't. I was happy about that. I couldn't of that to my mom. It would ruin her. Dad left her, what would she think if I did? If I had died I hoped the boys would have told her that it was- it was natural. I hoped they wouldn't tell her that I killed my self.

All the boys come up and hug me. Charlie's crying and is is Barclay. I smile weakly at them and am unable to look them in the eyes.

Soon we're all in the back yard. Sydney's seated on my lap and I smile. Casey next to me and I glance at him once only to find him staring. I avoid his gaze. What would the boys think? What would mom think? What would the boys moms think? What would Syd think? What would the fans think? Well shit this complicated.

"Jake?" I look up to meet James's gaze. I look at him with my eyebrows raised. He sighs and I look and everyone is looking at me.

"Yeah?" I ask him and he chuckles. I scowl and look around. Casey's smiling at me.

"I asked do you wanna go get something to eat?" he asks and I smile.

"Oh, yeah I would." I say and Syd hopes of my lap and pulls me inside. Then I realize that they really have been here a couple days. Because she goes right to my room. Then she leaves and closes the door. I smile and shake my head. I then pull off the shirt I had worn home and grabbed a new one I had gotten a week before and still hadn't worn.

I finished and then realized my arms were showing. I go to the bathroom and I swear I almost used the whole bottle. And that's okay because when I looked at my arms I saw nothing.

Walking out my room tow arms caught my waist. I smiled as I came faced to Casey. A smirk on his face. His hands move a bit on my hips and I almost moan but hold it back. When he sees this he smirks even more.

"Just came to check to see it you were almost ready." He says and runs his noes across my collar bone. This time I moan and he kisses my neck lightly. Then it becomes heavier. I moan quietly and grip his hair. He smirks at me and I giggle. As he pulls back he just leaves.

I touch my neck and hiss.

He left a hickey.

And now I with a hasn't used the whole bottle.

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A/N

Sorry for not updating! I went to the mall then I went and saw PITCH PERFECT 2! Great movie!!

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