Am I Crazy?

Reunited

Jisung

My father didn't even bother to go with me inside he had already called ahead of time and arranged everything, so I was basically to just go inside and have the staff show me to my room. As soon as I set my bag down, I was to meet with the therapist only to be told I was seeking attention, and everything was in my head and there was no need to hurt myself and so on.

Sure, I didn't need to hurt myself, but it was the only thing believe it or not that calmed me down. I'm pretty sure the therapist was being paid by my father so he could still have control over me even in this shit hole.

As I made my way to the therapist's office which I knew like the back of my hand I got nods and some smiles from some of the staff as well as concerned looks and sad ones too. Most of the staff is still the same there were a couple of new faces and some of the patients were the same with some new ones as well.

"Ah come in dear boy." The therapist said after I knocked on the door. "So what shit are you being paid to say to me now." I growled. "I am simply just doing my job; I wasn't expecting you again so soon. Your father told me you hurt yourself." "Yeah, I fucking did and so what. It's not like you would understand what I'm going through anyways." Well, I would know if you just talked to me." "Please so you can tell this whole conversation to my father."

I was right, my father was a powerful man and even though this shit is supposed to be confidential I guess money is more. I guess I can just play along and come up with some lame ass excuse.

"Can we do this some other time I'm tired and just want to rest." I sighed. "Of course, we can continue when I come back from vacation in a few days. I was supposed to have left today but I got a call saying Han Jisung was being admitted and I had to see for myself." The therapist replied.

I got up and left knowing that I wouldn't have to deal with them for a few days at least. I walked back to my room and plopped down on my bed. I didn't even bother to put my clothes away I was just too tired to care, and I went to sleep.

When I woke up, I felt more relaxed than I ever have been in a while maybe this place does to some wonders. I looked out the window and noticed the sun rising I must have been out cold and now I was feeling hungry as my stomach growled. I knew breakfast wouldn't be served for another hour but maybe they'll make an exception for me.

Still in my clothes from yesterday I was too lazy to change, I made my way into the hallway which was very quiet and peaceful. I saw some of the orderlies walking to and fro checking stuff and making sure everything was in order and the nurses sitting at their desks going over files and what not. I was given some glances and nods but no you shouldn't be out of your room looks and I kept on walking.

Sure, the dining hall was empty, but I could smell the food coming from the kitchen and the staff hard at work. I walked over to the window and was about to grab something when a sudden voice stopped me.

"Well, if I would have known any better, I would have thought some random person was trying to steal food." I turned around and the boy was smirking. "Is it you?" I asked. I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

"Han fucking Jisung." The boy yelled opening his arms wide for me to run into which I gladly did. "Oh my god I never would have thought to see you again Lix." I started to tear up. "Oh, baby don't cry." Felix said rubbing circles on my back.

Felix got us both some food and we went and sat down to eat breakfast and talk catching up on all that has happened since we saw each other last. Had to admit Felix looked way better now than when he used to, he wasn't as scrawny and thin as he was and had actually grown into himself a bit. He was still on the short side but his whole body had filled out and his once light blonde hair was now black, and his freckles stood out more on his face. But he was till the same Lee Felix I met a long time ago.

"So yeah, I am not a patient, but I actually volunteer here now, and I actually got away from my parents believe it or not. I guess you could say life has been better to me." Felix explained. "I'm happy for you Lix you deserve it." I smiled. "And you Jisung why are you here? I've been here long enough with my volunteer work, and it has been a while."

I really didn't want to get into any details, but he was my friend, and he was the one who made my life bearable in this shit hole way back when. But I didn't want to talk about it here, so we finished our breakfast, and we took a walk out to the gardens. The gardens were always my happy place here and it was where I came to think and clear my head.

As we made it outside and walked down the path to the gardens, I could feel Felix glancing at me every now and them like he was worried I do something. He knew when we were younger that I had hurt myself before, so he probably knew what was about to come when I told him my story.

We found a bench to sit on and we turned towards each other making sure to face one another and I could already feel the tears starting to come down my cheeks.