Am I Crazy?

The world is not against you

The only thing that kept my mind at my bay right now was Minho and his lips the way he kissed me, the way he tasted and the way he cared for me.

Waking up from my nightmare that I hadn't had in forever was quickly replaced by that day in the library, he didn't have a care in the world if anyone saw us or not. And that's what I liked about him. He may be friends with Chan and Changbin along with Hyunjin but he's not like them, Minho is different.

It's probably too good to be true but right now I don't care.

Minho was my first kiss, and it was amazing. I just hope he feels the same.

 I wish I could say I'll get my hopes up, but nothing ever works in my favor.

May the odds be ever in my favor I guess...

I slowly drifted back to sleep with the thought of seeing Minho at school in the back of my mind.

Minho

Fuck.

"Son, we have someone we would like to introduce to you this weekend. She's very nice and she would really like to meet you." My stepmother said as we were sitting in my father's study.

Every couple of months they would find someone for me to meet and I always came up with same lame as excuse to get out of it but frankly I'm running out of them. I just turned 18 for fuck's sake why can't I just find someone that I fall in love with and just have them be happy for me.

"Mom why can't I just find someone to fall in love with instead of being forced into a marriage." I spoke. "Because son this is how it works in our family, especially with our business. I need you to take over when the time comes, and you are going to need someone by your side." My father replied.

I just sat there and rolled my eyes, maybe I should just come out to my parents. But then again, they are totally against anyone being gay. They aren't disgusted by it by any means, but they don't think it's appropriate for two gay people to be together and trying to run a company. They think a man should have a responsible and caring woman by their side.

"Also, spring break is coming up in a few days, we are taking a family trip during your break with the girl's family you are going to meet. So be on your best behavior."

But what do I know? I'm still in school and I've barely had a normal school life the way it is.

"Fine." I muttered.

Great the break I thought I had to myself and hoping to spend it with a certain someone has gone out the window.

I walked out of the study and went up to my room locking myself inside and throwing myself on the bed. I looked up at the ceiling and ran today's events through my mind.

Han fucking Jisung.

The beautiful chubby cheeked boy who stole my heart instantly, the boy with a story. 

I never expected him to kiss me back, but it was the best feeling in the world.

I hope he can come to trust me I want to get to know him, and I don't care who knows that I want to be seen with Jisung. I want to talk to him openly, I want to hang out with him, I want to take him on a date. 

I don't want him to be scared, every time I look at him, he has this fear in his eyes like he's waiting for his time to come. He thinks the whole world is against him and I want to show him that it's not.