Am I Crazy?

My best friend

After Felix had left Jisung's he went to the cafe where he knew Jeongin was working and for sure knew Chan would be there. He wanted to know what Chan knew about Jisung since he was his bully and has been around him more than he was.

As soon as the door chimed at the cafe and as Felix entered Jeongin's face lit up as he saw him walk over his way, he could feel someone's gaze on him...Chan.

"Hey Lix! Glad to see you." Jeongin smiled. "Hey Innie missed you. Sorry about the other night by the way. I just had something going on is all." Felix replied. "It's alright I'm sure it was important whatever it was. Anyways what brings you in? Can I get something for you?" "Oh, um yeah anything sweet." "Coming right up!"

Felix walked over to Chan's table and sat down. Chan definitely had and interesting look on his face that's for sure. Chan raised his eyebrows and stopped whatever work he was doing on his laptop. "Can I help you?" Chan asked bluntly. "I'm a friend of Jeongin's and I know he is somewhat smitten with you. I also know you're Chan. You are Jisung's bully." Felix replied.

Those last few words definitely got Chan's attention.

Chan

Whoever this guy is knows me or at least of me. Let's see what he knows then shall we? "Was." I replied. " Jisung mentioned you. He told me about the things you've done to him and everything he's been through." Felix spoke. "Look I don't know what you want from me and since you already know how much crap I put your friend through what are you trying to achieve here? " "What else has he gone through?" "As in?"

I'm curious as to know what Felix is asking here, I mean he knows what shit I've done so what else is there? I want to play nice but if he's going to accuse me of shit then there's something else coming to him. "His father. Do you know anything about him?" Felix asked. Felix looked genuinely concerned I assume he knows more about what he's letting on. "I don't know much just that when I didn't use Jisung as a punching bag he always showed up late and with much worse injuries than I ever gave him."

Jisung was the outcast of our school, and no one wanted to be near him and me and my boys always made fun of him and eventually we started to bully him. I bullied him badly and right now I've realized how much of an ass I was.  I didn't know much about his home life, and it wasn't until recently that I figured out his home life was worse than his school life. I have yet to get the courage to go up to Jisung and actually apologize to him.

I know I laughed at myself too. It's true though ever since I've come to this cafe and saw him, saw Jeongin I knew I wanted to change. "To be honest I never Knew he was getting abused by his father all I knew was he was without a mother, and I just thought some other kids beat him up when I didn't." I explained. "Well, I'm not going into detail, but his mother was killed when he was young, and his father is an abusive asshole." Felix said bitterly.

All I know his since he's found Minho or Minho found him my best friend has been the happiest that I've known him to be. I now know myself how it is to feel and to care about someone, to like someone. Minho hasn't had the best childhood nor his family life right now. Being forced to marry someone just so your son can take over the family business, I hate how that's how most life is nowadays especially when you're born into a rich family. My family next to Minho's and Hyunjin's and I'm assuming Jisung's father who has his own company are all rich and expect their children to take over at some point.

Hiding who you are from your family just so you can be happy even just for a little bit shouldn't be the way to live. Minho doesn't want his family's business and doesn't want to marry some rich bitch either. My best friend is gay, and I've pretty much always have known so, and he finally has found someone that he's happy with and I'd rather not see that go to shit.

"We can talk more later but for now I just wanted to feel you out. Right now, you don't seem like a total asshole." Felix said. "I'm trying." I chuckled." "Don't hurt him." Felix motioned towards Jeongin. "Don't plan on it." I smiled.

Watching Felix get up and talk to Jeongin on his way out made me realize how nice it must be to actually have real friends. Sure, Changbin you could say is a friend but Minho and Hyunjin, we all seem to click better.

Jeongin will be a first for me.