Am I Crazy?

Seeing you

Minho

It took me a moment to register what exactly Hyunjin was saying, it hit me like a brick wall and all I wanted to do was run to him. Most of it was probably my fault and I never knew how serious Jisung's mental health or situation was.

I hated myself right now more than ever, I know he probably won't want to see me, but Hyunjin said he would take me with him this weekend when he goes to see his siter again. I wouldn't even know where to begin with everything saying sorry isn't going to be enough and I don't want it to seem like I pity him or feel sorry for him.

I need him to hear me out and I will do everything I can to make sure he does.

Just knowing how much school he has had to skip because of being in that place I never knew how much of a shitty home life he had. To losing your mother and having to endure all the abuse from your father I couldn't even imagine.

If only people knew his true story, sure there would still be people he would think he was legit crazy, but some might lay off of him and not bully him anymore. I would think my friends would stop it all.

School couldn't get over any sooner it was Friday and the day just seemed to be dragging on, I just wanted to see him and talk to him in hopes of understanding. I don't expect him to forgive me, but I just hoped he would at least accept my apology and listen to what I have to say.

As lunch time rolled around, I decided to sit with my friends which I knew would be a mistake. "Look what the cat dragged in." Chan sneered. "Min where have you been? We have been worried about you." Changbin said. "Sorry guys just had a lot of stuff go on during break and yeah." I replied.

As I took my seat on the ground Hyunjin made his way over and plopped down next to me. "Meet me at the gates right after school." Hyunjin whispered. I just nodded and tried to listen to the conversations the boys were going on about.

"So, where the hell has closet boy been?" Changbin asked. "No shit haven't seen him in a couple weeks I think?" Chan chimed in. "Maybe it'll be like last time, he was gone for months."

I winced at those last words; months he was gone for God I hope that isn't the case this time around.

"What's it to you guys' miss being douchebags to him?" Hyunjin exclaimed. "Are we going soft on the boy Jinnie?" Chan raised his eyebrows waiting for the younger to answer. "Aren't you getting tired of bullying the same person. Don't those who bully the same person repeatedly usually end up liking them?" Hyunjin smirked. "Fuck off Hwang."

He's not wrong but then again you usually only see that in movies and tv shows but in real life I really hope that isn't the case here.

"Being awfully quiet Minho." Changbin said. "Uh sorry just have a lot on my mind is all." I replied. "Nah if anyone likes the boy its him for sure." Chan grinned. "Wait you favor guys Min?" Changbin asked. "Does it matter? Actually, it doesn't because my parents already have my marriage arranged." I grunted.

Chan and Changbin looked at Minho with wide eyes "Really?" Chan asked. "Yeah, as soon as I graduate the date has been set." I frowned. "Isn't that a good thing though? She better at least be hot." "Thats not the point Chan. I don't want some fake ass marriage where I don't even love the person. "What's the point in arranged marriages anyways. You could end up with a complete pyscho." Hyunjin mentioned.

Thank God the bell rang I don't think I could have handled anymore.

I was out the door faster than light as soon as the bell rang, and I made my way to the school gates where Hyunjin was already waiting as he has his last period free.

My mind was full of emotions and thoughts and the drive couldn't be any less nerve wracking. I was almost about to lose my shit when we finally turned down a long driveway that led to the Institution and to be honest it looked like something out of a horror movie. Let's just hope the inside is much nicer.

When we got inside Hyunjin led us to the front desk "Hi, I'm here to see my sister Sana and I brought a friend with me." The lady behind the desk eyed me and then gave Hyunjin which I assumed was the check in that he had to sign which he handed to me after, and I signed my name.

Apparently, his sister was outside in the garden's so that's where we made our way to first. The gardens were similar to the one at school and it reminded me of me and Jisung's spot I wonder if he came out here much.

"Jinnie!" Squealed a girl who ran up to hug Hyunjin. "Hey there sis." Hyunjin smiled picking up the girl and twirling her around. I watched the two and it brought a small smile to my face "This is my friend Minho." Hyunjin putting his sister down.

I watched the girl walk over to me and eyed me like she was trying to figure out if I was a good guy or a bad guy. "You're Jisung's crush! I'm Sana by the way." Sana held her hand out for me to shake and I took it hesitantly. "He has talked a lot about you, but you hurt him." "Sana." Hyunjin chastised.

All I could do was nod and keep my eyes low, she was right after all. "Jisung!" Sana yelled waving at him from across the garden.

I immediately turned around and my heart sunk to the bottom as I took him in. He was paler than normal and definitely looked like he wasn't eating much and there were scars visible on his arms and looked like he didn't sleep enough.

Oh, Jisung I said to myself.

After he waved back to Sana his eyes locked with mine and I couldn't tell if he was relieved to see me or he wanted to rip my head off.

As he stopped just before us, he was face to face with me and my eyes couldn't hold back their tears. "Ok well Jinnie lets go over and feed the birds." Sana said as she took hold of Hyunjin's hand, and they both walked away.

Here we were standing face to face just inches apart, and I failed to keep my tears from falling.