Am I Crazy?

Breaking down

After the small break from school and visiting my sister, I definitely needed to find Minho, I know Jisung's crush is my best friend. I also know Minho had to spend his break with the girl he's supposed to "marry", and he was not thrilled about that. So, mentioning everything that happened over my break and seeing Jisung probably isn't going to sit well with him.

But seeing as school has started again and a few days have gone by Minho has pretty much been not here. Sure, he shows up but as soon as the bell rings he is out of here so even trying to talk to him has been a headache.

All of us were sitting outside on one of our free periods just being boys and messing around when I happened to spot Minho walking off. "Hey! Asshole I need to talk to you." I yelled trying to run after him.

Damn he walks fast but eventually I caught up to him. "Hyunjin please I'm not in the mood." Minho groaned. "Not in the mood my ass you have been this way for days. What the fuck is wrong with you." I snapped. "I'm getting married! Thats what's fucking wrong with me. Yeah, as soon as I'm out of this place I won't be able to go to college and live a normal life. I'll be tied down to some money hungry bitch and running the company." Minho yelled tears escaping his eyes.

Minho sat down running his hands through his hair in frustration and I could tell it was taking a toll on him. "The funny thing is I'm gay and how am I supposed to tell my family that especially when I know they want grandchildren." Minho laughed. "Min I'm so sorry I had no idea, how can they put this together so fast?" I asked placing my hand on his back in support. "Apparently it was in the works for a while."

I watched so many emotions run through my friend's face, anger and frustration to sadness and hysterical.

"I guess what I'm about to say won't be any better." I said grimly.

Minho looked up at me with a questioning face "Why what do you have to tell me?"

I took a few seconds before I could tell him not sure if I wanted to tell him the whole truth or not. "Over break I spent some time with my sister. No one knows about this, but she has been in a mental institution for the past couple of years after our mother killed herself right in front of her." I began.

"While I was there, I saw a familiar person someone I never expected." I continued. "Hyunjin, I had no idea about your sister and I'm sorry but what does this have to do with me?" Minho asked confused. "I saw Jisung there, he was a patient."

I swear I thought I saw Minho's face drain of blood; his eyes were dark and scared. Minho suddenly stood up and began pacing back and forth and it was like he was trying to catch his breath. I've never seen Minho like this and it kind of scared me, I don't know what was happening as I watched him.

"T-this is my fault." Minho tried to say. "What's your fault Hyung?" I was confused by what he meant. "Hyunjin, I kissed him, and we had a moment a couple weeks back."

After Minho calmed down a little bit, he explained everything to me, and it was not something I expected at all. So, my best friend liked the loner boy and they had kissed and shared moments together during lunch and then he fucked it up.

"J-jisung heard everything that day in class." Minho said. "Well for starters Chan doesn't know how to keep his damn mouth shut and you just added to it Min." I replied. "I know and I hate myself for it, I just wanted Chan to think I was with you guys and not going soft." "Hey, don't bring me into this, it's all Chan and Changbin while I just stand by which is just as worse by the way. I guess I'm like you in that way, I don't want to do the actual bullying, but I don't want to seem like a bitch either."

A few minutes of silence go by, and I realized class had already started but Minho needed me and didn't need to go to fucking class.

"How did he look?" Minho gulped. "To be honest and not good. And he was recently admitted but it's not his first time there Min." "W-what do you mean?" "After his mother died his father admitted him, that's where he was all that time and why you barely saw him or remember him."

Minho stared at the air tears running down his cheeks and muffled sobs were escaping his mouth. I got up and went over to him wrapping him up in my arms as he completely broke down and we both lowered ourselves to the ground and sat there which seemed like forever.

Eventually Minho stopped crying and tried his best to stay calm, but I still held him tight. "I need to see him." Were the last words he said to me before he got up and walked away.