Am I Crazy?

Going Home

Jisung

That day I saw Minho when he came with Hyunjin and when he kissed me, I felt so many emotions. I was scared and happy but at the same time anxious and nervous and after he left, I had told the staff I didn't want any visitors until further notice.

I wanted time to think and clear my head because I knew Minho would come back and I don't think I could deal with him until I knew exactly how I felt. And I knew Felix could help me figure that out but now I have to deal with his ramblings and how hot Hyunjin was and how nice he was blah blah blah.

Hyunjin had turned out to be a decent person despite everything in the past and I could tell Felix was smitten with him and it was actually kind of cute.

I was sitting in my room when Felix came in and sat down next to me his face was that of sadness. "Lix why do you look like someone died?" I asked. "Well, no one died but it's worse news than that." Felix said. "What's worse than someone dying?" "I was told by your therapist that you will be going back home."

Well, I guess you could say that was worse than someone dying, going back to my home and having to deal with my father. "When do I leave?" I asked quietly. "The day after tomorrow. I'm sorry Ji." Felix said. "Oh, um okay." "I'll make sure to keep in touch with you this time yeah?" "I don't think I cand do this without you so I will hold you to that." "I promise."

After Felix left, I curled up in a ball under my blanket and felt everything crumble around me. To me this place was my safe haven as crazy as that sounds. I had Sana who was the bright cheerful light in my life, and I had my best friend Felix who meant everything to me.

It has been a few days since I saw Minho and it was taking everything in me to not think of him. But my mind failed me, and my head was soon consumed with all thoughts of Minho. I guess the only good thing coming out of me going back home was knowing I would be seeing him again.

I just hope when I go back to school, he won't ignore me and stand by while watching his friends bully me. I know him kissing me and Hyunjin seeing the whole thing was one thing but having the other two find out anything about us was entirely different.

Hyunjin didn't give a fuck if Minho kissed me or that he likes me, Hyunjin apologized to me and if anything, Felix had told me while he has talked to Hyunjin is that he is actually a decent person.

I just know I am prepared to go back to school and dealing with all the other students, but I am not prepared to go back home and deal with my father.