letters to the boy who never cared

t h i r t y - t w o

In Monday's English class, I connected eyes with Marin and shared a weak smile. Things were changing, though we were yet to be friends, and we had a silent decision that we couldn't be against each other anymore.

I sat in my normal seat and glued my eyes to our textbook. Inside, I steeled myself for what was coming, and felt a surge of anger and power through me.

I flinched when he sat next to me, imperceptibly, but held my eyes on the same three words. I pretended like he'd never existed for a whole hour until he broke the awkward silence.

"Lexi? You didn't text me back. What happened at the mall?"

I still didn't look up, but I glared at the black and white print before my eyes. "I was enlightened. And don't call me Lexi."

"What's that supposed to mean?" Reed pressed. "What did I do?"

I sat up in my chair so fast that Reed flinched. "I don't get it. Why are you worried? What's your purpose? To save our 'relationship'?" I put air quotes with my hands around the word. What we had, it wasn't a relationship. It was something toxic.

Reed gave me a bewildered look. "What are you talking about?" he asked slowly.

"I'm talking about how you think you can cheat on you girlfriend and then act like nothing's wrong," I hissed, giving him a killer stare. "I know, Reed, so stop playing dumb."

There was a pregnant pause before he spoke again, his caramel eyes looking confused. "How- how did you find out?" he asked softly, laying his hand on my shoulder. I shrugged it off in disgust.

"Marin told me. You broke her heart, how could you?" I felt my voice growing wild and impassioned.

"She never meant so much to me as you do, Lexi-" Reed tried.

"Hard to imagine, since it's pretty clear I don't mean anything to you at all," I retorted, with a withering stare.

"Alexa, I-"

"Stop it. Just stop talking." I bent my head over my work, signaling the end of the conversation.

"Lexi, what I did with her wasn't meaningful. I had needs, you didn't want to fulfill them."

I finally let my head up to give him an incredulous look. "You are not turning this on me. Are you serious right now?"

Reed shoved a hand through his dark mass of hair. "I mean, come on, Lex, I'm a guy."

I shook my head in disgust. "This conversation is over. I mean, it never should've started, but it's over. And so are we."

The bell rang to punctuate my statement, and I gathered up my things to leave the classroom as soon as possible.

I speed-walked out of the room, but I was no match for Reed's long legs. "Okay, so relationships aren't my strong suit."

"Or loyalty. Or honesty," I added, opening my locker as he leaned on the one next to mine.

"Okay, okay," Reed dismissed. "But you can't deny we had fun, Lexi. We don't have to stop, you know."

"I really hope- for the sake of me not remembering you as the devil incarnate- that you didn't just suggest being friends with benefits."

This awful boy actually shrugged.

"Oh, my God. No," I cried in frustration, shaking my head fervently. How did I ever date this guy?

"Lex, just think about-"

"No." I slammed my locker shut and spun around to walk away from him. Almost instantly, I collided with a t-shirt clad body. Specifically, a certain freckled boy's body.

"Matty!" I nearly squealed. Thank the Lord who sent you to me. "I need to talk to you." I pretty much dragged him down a random hallway, efficiently escaping Reed.

"Huh?" Matt said as I yanked him off his path. "Alexa. What's happening?"

"That's happening," I replied, jerking a thumb back at my confused ex-boyfriend.

"This isn't over, Lexi! Just let me talk to you!" Reed yelled down the hallway, attracting stares all around us.

"No, Reed," I called. "I'm pretty sure it is."

A/N sooooo they're over. yaaaay

this book is actually almost over and idk how i feel about that...

vote, comment and follow so i know you luv me. if u dont do it anyway bc ur fake and u want me to think ur nice (which u r)

P.s. marin (sophie colquhoun aka gemma from royals) on the side

okiiiie well bye

xoxo janai