letters to the boy who never cared

e i g h t e e n

We hailed a cab from Starbucks to a cheap hotel a few blocks away. The cab driver drove slowly, so there was plenty of time for Reed to bother me on the ride to the hotel.

"Please be my girlfriend," he murmured in my ear, kissing a long my jawline.

"Reed Marlowe," I hissed through my teeth. "We are in a taxi. There's a stranger a foot away. Do you mind?"

Reed gave me an easy smile. "Not especially," he answered, shrugging. He resumed kissing my face. "Please be my girlfriend."

"No," I ground out. "Is this how you ask all of your girlfriends out?" I couldn't help but giggle, though. He was killing me.

"So what if it is, Lexi?" He nibbled at my ear, and I half-heartedly swatted at him.

"It's not working," I insisted in a singsong voice.

Reed stopped kissing me and sat up straight. "Yeah?" he asked, smirking.

"Yeah."

"Hmm," he said, staring out the window. "Hey, babe?"

"Mmhmm?"

"You know, I was feeling a little off today, but you're definitely turning me on."

I looked at him incredulously. "Are you serious?"

Reed grinned and leaned in to kiss me on the cheek. "Are you a camera? 'Cause I smile whenever I look at you."

I giggled, about to respond, before he took my breath away with a gentle kiss to my lips.

"I must be a snowflake, 'cause I've fallen for you," Reed continued, following with a deeper kiss. I smiled against his lips.

"You are so stupid."

"My love for you is like a poop."

I raised an eyebrow at him stopped laughing. "Excuse me?"

"I just can't hold it in!"

I burst out in laughter, but I was cut off by a rough kiss from Reed.

I managed to pull away and grin at him. "After that joke, you're really in the mood to make out?"

Reed shrugged impishly. "I guess I'm always in the mood to make out." He pulled me back into the kiss.

We were interrupted by a tap on the Plexiglas partition. "Aye. No sex in my cab."

I turned beet red, and Reed let out an obnoxious laugh. "We weren't going to," I murmured, completely mortified. Reed gave me a look and shrugged, and I hit him on the shoulder annoyedly. I sat pressed up against the door of the taxi, my cheeks still hot.

We got to the hotel, Reed paid at the reception desk, and we ran up to our room. Reed swung the door shut behind us, and grinned at me devilishly.

"Little Lexi," he singsonged. I giggled and tried to hurry away from him, kicking my boots of as I ran. He came up behind me and grabbed me by the waist. The world spun around me in a colorful blur as Reed swung me onto the couch. Suddenly, his expression softened.

"God, you're gorgeous," he breathed. With his perfect face hovering over mine, and the smell of coffee on his breath as it blew over my face, it was impossible to keep in a blush.

"Reed," I started to protest, but the adoration and lust in his eyes was enough to make me falter.

"Please, Alexa Green," he whispered, tucking one of my stray hairs behind my ear. "Be my girlfriend."

I gulped, goosebumps cropping up on my arms as his face grew closer to mine.

"Okay."

Reed smiled widely. His lips brushed mine gently at first, then rougher each time after he pulled back. I felt his stomach touch mine as our bodies made contact at as many points as possible.

Something felt wrong.

I was confused. We'd done worse than this, yet it felt so different and overwhelming. It was like my first all over again, and not in a good way.

Reed, however, didn't pick up on my hesistancy. He grazed his teeth along my ear and jawline, smiling against my neck.

"Reed, stop," I mumbled.

A low chuckle escaped his lips. He thought I was being coy or something, because he only got rougher.

"Reed, please."

He traced the strip of skin between my pants and shirt, like before, while pulling me back in for a deep kiss. I gasped when his hand went under my shirt.

"Reed, stop it!"

I kicked our from under him and tucked the hem of my shirt down. "Not right now, Reed, okay?" I shivered and looked up at his face.

He looked confused, and very disappointed. He didn't voice any of these feelings, though. He shrugged and went to lie on one of the beds.

I went and sat next to him. "We can still cuddle and stuff. I just...I'm feeling a bit off."

"I think I'm just gonna go shower and go to sleep."

I was surprised, and a bit hurt, by the clinical tone of Reed's voice. "Um, okay," I mumbled. The bed creaked as he swung his legs off of it and headed into the bathroom.

My fingers wove themselves together nervously. What was wrong with me? I didn't understand why I was so overwhelmed by Reed's touch.

My thoughts drifted to Matt, and I wondered if it was his confession amd my mixed-up feelings for him that made me apprehensive about Reed. After all, that kiss had affected me more than I let on.

I gathered the t-shirt Reed had been wearing to wear to bed and sat with it on my lap, waiting for my turn in the shower. This awkwardness was not what I imagined when Reed told me we'd be staying in a hotel.

When we were both changed and in our seperate beds, we stayed in that awkward silence. I thought of texting one of the girls, but if they knew who I was with (and trust me, they'd pry it out of me) they'd give me a lecture a billion years long. And texting Matt was definitely not an option.

We messed around on our phones for a while, and then Reed flicked off his bedside lamp to go to sleep. I took the cue and did the same.

I laid on my side, my cheek pressed into the pillow and my wide-open eyes staring into the dark. I could hear his steady breathing, but I still felt antsy about what had happened.

"Love you," I said softly into the dark, loud enough so he could hear.

I got no reply, and forced myself to be okay with that. It takes time for some people, I guess.

A/N awww poor lil alexa shes so in luuuv

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ily 5ever
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