If Yesterday Could Disappear

Chapter 33

This is not goodbye.

Sometimes leaving doesn't mean you'll never comeback. Sometimes it means, finding yourself, and healing your inner wounds in order to face the nightmares that continues to haunt you.

Life is never easy, and it tortured me. But now that I know the truth that I seek, my soul is yearning for peace and change. And in order to heal, I have to leave the man of my life here in this country. Just for a moment.

"Are you ready?" Tanong sa akin ni Aiden pagkapasok nito sa aking kwarto. I looked at him and I fell in love all over again. He looks like a prince charming, here to save his princess in distress.

And He's perfect for me. Only me.

Tumango ako sa kaniya at kinuha ang bag ko na pinatong ko sa aking kama kanina.

I'll be meeting my therapist today to bid goodbye and he wanted to go with me. Hindi naman ako makatanggi dahil gusto ko ring kasama s'ya sa mga nabibilang na araw ko dito sa Pilipinas.

I'll be leaving for France with Hani, and Ofcourse Aiden doesn't have any idea on what part of the world I'll be staying. Cause I know this man's heart very well, and he'll do what it takes to find me. But unfortunately, Shawn's on my side. His tracker.

"I love you, unconditionally." I smiled at him.

"Stop making me fall for you all over again, Celine." Umiwas ito ng tingin sa akin kaya't natatawa kong hinawakan ang kaniyang pisngi bago ito bigyan ng isang halik sa kaniyang noo.

"Gusto kong ma-ulol ka sa akin eh bakit ba,"

He chuckled at me and pulled me closer in his arms. Embracing me.

"I'm already smitten to you, Ms. Celine Grei," he leaned in. Teasing me for a kiss, leaning in and pulling away that it made me look like a fool.

Fuck. Tinulak ko siya palayo sa akin at narinig itong tawang tawa sa reaksyon ko. Oh come on, I'm still a women who gets flustered.

"Wait." Hinawakan nito ang aking braso at lumuhod sa harapan ko. My gaze followed his every move and watched him touch my untied shoelace.

He fixed my shoe laces for me and it made me bit my lip. Hindi ko manlang napansin na hindi pa pala ito nakatali, and that's so dumb.

"Make sure to fix it before you leave, baka madapa kapa" he nagged like my Nana which made me roll my eyes at him.

"Don't roll your eyes at me like that, Darling."

"I'm not even rolling my eyes at you." I pouted.

"Sure," he smiled. Hinawakan niya ang pulsuhan ko at marahan akong hinila palabas ng apartment ko.

He takes care of me as if I'm a glass that could break any moment. And I love this feeling of having someone that deeply cares for me.

Simula noong mawala ang ama ko, kinulong ko ang sarili ko sa pinaka madilim na parte ng puso ko. I have to look strong infront of other people, although I know they could see through my broken pieces. It was lonely and cold in the dark, and I always wished for someone to pull me out of it.