If Yesterday Could Disappear

Chapter 38

Bumaba ako sa sasakyan ko at pinagmasdan ang Building na nasa harapan ko. Mas lalo itong tumaas at lumago, but it still feels like home.

I entered the Building and started reminiscing the memories I had here. Specially the ones I had with him.

And thinking about it makes me tear up. Lalo na't ilang hakbang nalang ang layo namin sa isa't isa.

Tumakbo ako papunta sa elevator at pinindot ang floor ng apartment ko. My heart is beating so fast, It's exciting and nerve wrecking at the same time.

I left for a year and we didn't had any Communications at all. Other girls would be dying out of curiosity, but I remained my distance because as I promised- I'll be better for him. And now that I am, finally I could go back home, to him

I stopped infront of his doorstep and heaved a deep breath. I gathered all of my strength and courage before knocking on the door.

I waited for a few seconds before it opened. And when it did, I froze on my spot.

The same forest eyes that captivated me before is right in front of my eyes again. His hair has gotten longer but it only made him look more attractive than he already is.

After a year, he's finally in front of me again.

"Hi," I said awkwardly while biting my lip, trying to stop myself from breaking down infront of him.

I looked straight into his eyes and my heart sank seeing his tears starting to form just like mine. Oh God knows how much I miss this man right infront of me.

He approached me with small steps and admired me as if I'm a master piece. Still can't believe that I'm finally infront of his doorstep, waiting for him to embrace me.

Nang makalapit, hinawakan niya ang aking mukha at doon tuluyang nagsituluan ang aking mga luha. His touch made me feel safe, secured and protected. Hindi na ako nagdalawang isip pa at yinakap ito.

I cried in his arms, hugging him tight after a long journey of struggles in life.

"You're actually here," The mixed emotions on his voice made me cry harder, burrying my face on his chest. Hinapit niya ang aking bewang at mas pinaglapit pa ang aming mga katawan.

Yes Aiden, I'm finally back.

"I'm all better now," I whispered enough for him to hear, still sobbing In his arms.

And after all these years of living with the pain of yesterday, I could finally say these words. I am finally better, I finally found myself- and I finally found home. And It's your arms.

He touched my chin, lifting it to face him. Pinagmasdan ko ito at nakitang namumula ang kaniyang mga mata sa pag-iyak kagaya ko, but the relief in his eyes stood out the most and from the way he smiles at me, he looks proud. And so am I,

"Thank you for pestering my life before," The both of us laughed like fools from my weird statement as he wipes my tears away.

"Thank you for loving me despite of my troubled life. Thank you for taking care of me, Thank you for waiting for me." I cried.

It hard. It was hard to be away for a year, but it was worth it.

And In those moments I realized that In order to be better, I have to let yesterday unfold- although it hurts. Cause that's the point, in order to be better you have to let the pain be felt. To learn, and to accept.