OK you know I have nightmares because of my fucking PTSD right well when I had a mental health worker she told me about lucid dreaming and trying to keep a dream journal. I also was reading a book on esoteric shamanism and spirit animals I have three spirit animals are actually the peacock bird, the bat, the wolf. And I was also learning about in this esoteric shamanistic book that you are they learn lucid dreaming so I learned lucid dreaming very much so and started practising I would plan implant an idea in my head like I would with a Bork and start off with that and then go to sleep and watch the dream happen instead of having a fucking nightmare. Well this is going to be a weird story to tell you and some of you might find this a little crazy. But you know I am Muslim revert but anyway I ended up having a dream around Halloween where I ended up having this dream where I was talking with a Prophet Muhammad (saw) he said that my dreams and parents were going to come true and then I had a purpose in life to help other people. I still remember the stream even though it was two years ago it was very inspiring and a little offputting but very inspiring to notice that one of my ancestors told me to help other people. And there was through Lulu dreaming and Dominic books that I was reading and I was very grateful that I was able to meet the profit of my religion in the first place peace be upon him. And I learned that there are plenty of people that need help I didn't know how I was going to go about fulfilling this dream and fulfilling the profits wish for me until I met Christopher and then I ended up learning about these different courses first on the khan Academy for astronomy and then I blossomed a mouse another sciences and then I ended up learning other things and then soon enough on that side Khan Academy and then I ended up learning about social issues and social work through the courses I'm now taking through the homelessness learning hub and I'm learning other certifications to help me get along in life and help people as well.
Do I still Do art I just don't do drawings on dolls for my brother that's all I'm saying is that I don't doll art more or never get doll art and never will do doll art.
Instead I ended up deciding to design cartoons for the tattoo artist that did my second tattoo I'll tell you about my first tattoo in a minute but the second tattoo was an astronomy relayed one which was a Jupiter with them and Dela design on it and then I also got some semicolons on my middle fingers why on my middle finger is because there are a lot of assholes I'll tell you to go kill yourself and some people actually go ahead and take their advice "advice" and it's very sad and I've been told that many times by these assholes that I should go kill myself plenty of times sometimes I was very close to doing this or going through with the thought when I was in my early 20s and I said fuck this this is not worth my energy or time or whatever else that is more valuable than racking myself and checking myself so I ended up getting tattoos of semicolons on my middle fingers and if someone says I'm ugly or something they get the finger and then they'll see that on my middle finger that I have the semicolon and that I cannot be struck down by words or mean thoughts or actions I was going to be letting my story live on and Miles story will live on for the rest of my life that's one set of tattoos the other was the Jupiter which was for my mother father and brother we are all interested in astronomy except for my mother I called her the Jupiter pearl which is the pearl the size of Jupiter. So that's why the Jupiter. I remember showing my brother my the original Jupiter design he ragdoll Annette meaning he really yeah he harassed me about it and I said well it's just a tertiary design the artist is going to do the actual cleaning up of the damn thing. And then I actually showed him the tattoo after it was done he was surprised that I was able to create tattoos. But not as surprised as the artist who did the tattoo and did the semicolon tattoos as well. I ended up having a semi-job still do have a semi-job trying to create tattoos for people that might be interesting for the artist to work on other people. I have 10 or 11 so far done and I just have to do a few more and then I can send them off to the artist to see if he would be interested in the artwork. I am very honoured about this and I don't know what might happen after this this is also a little bit of a job I also have a job working for tattoos cleaning add a day program and I clean like a son of a bitch I clean like there's no tomorrow and I clean as if I mean it. And I clean thoroughly very well clean and disinfect everything. That's at hey house. I am paid $20.10 bucks an hour two hours and I do it very well and sometimes I do other little knickknacks around the house the group home just to get some more padding for the tattoos. The next tattoo will be of a big dipper inside the moon which is on my neck and some esoteric designs for my knuckles which is very interesting for me I don't know how much this will cost but I have to wait until September to actually verbalize that I want to do this. But my first tattoo that got me going was the swearing water molecule and I did that because of my fucked up relationship with water that's why the water molecules swearing and I named it Spanky. He's on my right shoulder the Jupiter is on my left bicep and I'm planning on getting more tattoos neck down. I am very interested in tattoos and piercings the piercings we have a little bit of a problem with it because I was an idiot enough to try to pierce myself and you know I'm a great study I'm a little quick study learned it off YouTube and then the next thing you know I did one piercing wrong which was the medusa and that was the end of it I ended up in the hospital with a mini staff infection if you well and I ended up having to give up on piercings or at least do it yourself piercings and I said there's no fucking way I'm doing this again so when I got the tattoo done professionally I just tired I'm going to have my piercings done professionally and then I was going to be able to take care of these things a lot easier in the long run if they're done professionally as I did with Spanky and the Jupiter and my semicolon tattoos everything was very well taken care of after it was done professionally all I have to do is make up the design in a way I go make the money and go to the tattoo parlor. iPhone getting tattoos is a way of helping my self heal through whatever, I want to well I shouldn't say whatever I know what trauma I went through and it was a lot of trauma. It's normal Asakusa Mercedes women's just trying to use art to express who I am just like wearing a wig or wearing make up or wearing jewellery or whatever I also have other means of healing myself like crystals and crystals like healing crystals Reiki and also my medication. I'll tell you about Reiki pretty soon when I decide to tell you and there are some funny stories with this.
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Non-FictionFrom the time I was born there is a reason why I was put on the earth and there is always the reason why there's something going on in my life whether it be traumatic or good. From my time in Romania as a baby to the time I was actually in Catholi...
