Life under 40 years of age ✔️

as you know

As you know that I was going to my brothers are a monthly basis for quite some time since last Christmas it would be a year if he hadn't fucked up the whole deal. What are you doing on this is gonna be a triggerwarning. Is he finger fucked me excuse my Graphic language but that was the case of it was he was fingering me when I didn't wanna be even touched in that way. He was sexually assaulting me. The last time I was with him and he was nearly going to be killed. Yeah he had the balls to threaten me with death and I serve more or less as a nephew that I didn't really give a shit about his life.   Soon I ended up getting headaches as well as other shit that was going on and I was getting to the point where is gnawing on my brain my squirrel and I was going to go completely bonkers if I couldn't do something about this because I know if he did it to me he was going to do it to someone else. So I told and confided in my rap partner band partner with Mark and told him to call my other friend this other friend in adopt calling the police and this is where the jump off starts. I wanted to press charges against my idiot brother at the time. But when I went there to be interviewed I told that exactly what the fuck happened to me which is exactly what I told you after the trigger warning. And I was very frank about it. And I was going to say that I was going to bring his neck some national sad. But all in all I've always had a positive experience with law-enforcement there's been some times I've had to get them involved because I have someone trying to snatch me or because of this case is retarded incident that was really more than retarded then it was fucked up. Again skews me for my language.   I remember going to the police station that night as if someone was pushing the van the house van with the big hand or copping it cupping me with a big hand and just gently guiding me to where I had to go which was the police station met with a detective and the next thing you know I ended up finding out that I wanted to help people like her on a federal level but only in the states because I can only take so much of Canada I wanted to be an FBI agent right then and there there's something that I had a funny feeling about when I was 14 years old.
When I was 14 years old I want to make a difference by being in the FBI I knew I had a high IQ because some people knew I was a genius and were jealous enough to call me a retard and a spaz out spaz out because of my PTSD. But it got to the point where I lost focus on the dream until recently when I went to meet the detective. After that I was finding out that I knew what was guarding me or who was guarding me to the police station other than the driver. It was my mother was there she was just holding my back and guarding me there in the first place as in spirit. Which draws back to my time when I was married offend by her when she was screaming you better make a difference in your life and you better make a difference in the world and give back. Something that stuck with me still to this day.
So I am working towards being an FBI agent one day but I know I'm gonna have to be a tattoo artist to get my ass through school because I did not get a college fund or anything my parents were good people but they were drunk so they weren't thinking to straight when they adopted me well my mother thought straight my father dead and he could've cared less at some point. And I had a bitch of an aunt.   Anyways I lived as an only child I have three brothers but they were way too over so I say only child because I was that was the case.   And from what happened to what my brother had done to me one of my brothers had done to me I decided I'm an only child then and there with my mother I didn't care less about my father side of the family. As I've done nothing more than shit. And I want to help people get away from people like my father side of the family which is a bunch of criminals and drug attic's. Something that I despise in the beginning my life because it finds terrorism. I ended up deciding trying to get back together with my and only to find out that she suffers from psychopathy as a psycho pathic behavior. That means he could've cared less about human life or that she could've cared less about what she does to people or how they feel Basically. She would be a serial killer if she had the chance and a very sadistic one at that. How do I know because she has no empathy and no remorse and no give a shit about human life. So that just drives me to be an FBI agent as well but here's a sticky fucker I'm also a fan of the insane clown posse which is fine and everything but the FBI considered them criminals and golfs and everything else. I decided no I'm gonna prove them wrong by joining them and show them that the hatchet man I also believe in Fidelity bravery and integrity. I ended up deciding to learn more about the way of the FBI and the seven c's. I have always had dreams where even at night where I was an FBI agent when I was your week head not as a nightmare but just as a dream and I was there something that I still hold on to this day. I knew that if I were to talk to detective in person that this would come about. That my goal in life the reason why that Archangel Gabriel came to my mother do you say there was a girl that was in need of a help, particular you me and ended up adopting me there was the reason there and also the reason why I came out of my birth mothers womb.  And then everything was able to fit together as if it was just an easy puzzle to begin with. It was something that was like selling pieces fell in the place and I knew that this is there was a reason why something was happening in the first place. I tried to be FBI when I was 14 years old but garden shit and that's what beat me down and destroyed my dream or I thought destroyed my dream been living an angry life ever cents and I'm tired of the angry life and I want to get to my dream.   But I might have extra dreams as well that I did not know about.  like singing.