Life under 40 years of age ✔️

mothers death

My mother man the most to me on the planet and I knew this was coming sooner or later not because of idiot was telling me about it but because of the fact that she was having blood clause I prepared myself in May and got a tattoo of Jupiter with a mandala design. And is resides on my left bicep where it belongs near my heart just parallel of my heart at least. But it still was a shocker when I heard that my mother had died of a haemorrhaging and cancer it pissed me off.   I don't know or get her in the most the hammering which means the bleeding out of all oriole fishes or if she thought of the cancer that was too far gone I just don't know which one God her but I know it was still that asshole Grim Reaper. I was so angry and so annoyed that I cried and I couldn't sleep that night I remember that night was horrible for me because I Well I was just impossible for me to deal with the next time I had to go to my mothers funeral it was a painful thing for me not because of emotions I can handle the emotions well enough but I just couldn't stand seeing her in the fucking box. She was a wonderful woman she had the balls or boobs to take me out of a terrorist country and to give me a decent life and be a good mother she was one of the rare mothers on the planet that actually cared for their cad. I didn't believe that she had to be a drunk. But she had her own issues as well who the hell doesn't. But this is what I said in my mother's funeral if I ever wanted to share with you who is my eulogy that she has save me from a lot of things in life that could've cost me my life including my birth. She worked at the Supreme Court of Canada and took me to the Supreme Court of Canada during the summer months when Corizon session and I was able to talk to the judges and actually see the movers and shakers of the legal system was very interesting. At the end of the day I would end up swimming at my neighbours swimming pool and that will be the end of that.
Other times that I remember was stargazing with my father the Big Dipper was my favourite constellation this is going to make me cry just talking about this but it Hass to be said that my mother was a good woman she never denied the truth she always told the truth she always hated racist not because of my sake because of my DNA test results on my pending DNA test results but just because It's a jack ass thing to do to be racist. Still boils me blood when I talk about racism and it pisses me off to no and one racism happens or able Azémar homophobia my mother denied stand for any discrimination Nord it all right I am following in a fourth staffs hopefully I will die in a way for a used in she did.
He had travelled almost the world except for AJ she has seen Australia she's seen New Zealand but she's never seen Asia she is seen Europe turkey well I guess he can call that Asia Greece and Africa along side with me and my father she was a wonderful woman that I have to say that was a very big part of my life she allowed me to be my old have Samaya to be who I am in the first place a creative in the world of a bland society.
I remember she would encourage me to do anything and everything and let me get away with murder not literally murder but you know what I mean like she spoiled me an Asian every week I would get an Amazon gift card and that is something I still do every month at the group home is to get an Amazon gift card but now I have to cut down on that because of my tattoos I am deciding that she is the only person that has helped me through my rough times other than Halle Hazelwood. Only Ali Hazelwood was a writer and I was a writer to so that helped my mother taught me more about the legal system and more about different things about how to be a decent human being was depending North on how you look but how are you acting in the first place if you act proper who gives a crap about the way you look you can look like a criminal and still be a class act that's what she thought. Never judge a book by its cover and that's what she was and I never literally never judged the book by his cover I read a book even if it didn't like the cover and I talk to the person even if I didn't like the persons behaviour I still talk to them and who knows you never know you can make a friend by Josh not judging by the cover of the person like the relax but it said by their actions in content the same thing with the book I have been reading Ally Hazelwood's love hypothesis some thing I wouldn't be caught dead reading but I am glad to have started because it was a very interesting book and it's something that I hold dear very much so it talks about cancer. Something my mother died over one of the things that my mother had died of other than haemorrhaging from blood thinners.
Boiler alert Ali Hazelwood talks about in love hypothesis the idea of noninvasive cancer treatments which is pretty good because that's pretty important to have is non-invasive cancer treatments and that's what I think my mom would've succeeded and she would've survived to had that been a reality. I know this for a fact because I have had lost my grandmother to cancer as well not through blood thinners but just threw stupid smoking something that I had quit long ago. And I have believe that smoking is more or less the evil of all things if you smoke too much air can cost you everything. Show me life is like academia or being an STEMist, you're always learning you're always in Mandarin or until the day you die then that's when you stop learning life is no different from a classroom or a university auditorium you're going to learn things whether you like it or not.
Think about this this is why I've been around for a long time she's taught me to be more or less an academic person as well as a street wise person and someone who cares about the human race there's only two races as I probably mention in my other books that there's the animal kingdom and the human kingdom that's about the size of it. So don't even bother saying the N-word to someone or saying stupid Aramore something while those lines because I'll call you on it and say there's only two races animal and human and Arabs and Black people are human just as an example. I have laughed about that so many times in my hip-hop music that I am blue in the face that you should not be a piece of crap racist. That it causes more harm than good.   What my mother has lovingly taught me and has taught me with her own flaws I walk in and forth steps in my own way I got tattoos and piercings I dye my hair I do whatever I want or I wear wigs and I wear make up and I just express myself as a creative person as the size of it because of my mother her legacy lives on with me even though she is still with me in nature as a spirit and sometimes flows around in my bedroom as a ghost she is my Casper...... But on my Casper you don't want to piss her off.