Brothers bestfriend

Chapter 19

ADDISON:
I'm sitting here, I'm not sure where I am, all I know is it's quiet and peaceful. I don't know how long I've been sitting here but soon I'm pulled from my bubble by a voice "there you are. You've got a lot of worried people out looking for you Addi." And I know the voice is Jordan Henderson, he sits next to me on the bench and puts a blanket over my shoulders. "Is everyone mad at me?" I ask through my tears and he just cuddles me "no one's mad Ads, just worried. Mase is on his way now, I'll be honest Declan's stopped talking since he found out" that last bit of the sentence breaks me "I just couldn't deal with it Jords, everything they were saying I see as true" I go to carry on but he interrupts me. "It's not true, I've known Mase and Dec a lot of years and when you left the first time they were broken, I've never seen either of them as happy as they are now" I look at him and just cry and he holds me.

I then hear another voice quietly speak and I know it's Mason "Ads, it's me, I'm so glad we've found you" Jordan moves telling Mase he'll go back with Ben, Mason tells him to let everyone know to find a spare room and sleep at ours if they want to.
Mason cuddles me and kisses my forehead "Ads I've seen the messages, we went on your instagram after reading your note. We didn't know what was going on. I'm so sorry you've had to deal with that. None of it is true I promise you, I've never been happier since having you back, and I promise you Decs never been happier than since getting you back. I love you sis never forget that" his words make me cry again and honestly I don't know why I believed what I did, but mentally I've been struggling and I think now they know it makes it easier. "I'm so so sorry Mase. I really fucked up didn't I?" He looks at me and says "don't ever apologise, I should've pushed you more earlier when I saw something was wrong, and you didn't fuck up, sometimes we all need an escape but please don't ever do it at this time again and without anyone knowing, i couldn't live if anything happened you or bubba" he places his hand on my bump.

I then I think of what Jordan said about Dec. "Does Dec hate me?" I ask Mason as we get in the car, I have to drive as Masons had a drink, he puts his hand on my thigh and says "he don't hate you he never could, he just broke with the thought of you gone, I think like me he blames himself for not noticing" we talk the rest of the journey and honestly it feels good to tell him. I park up and we head indoors, most of the lads have gone or gone to bed.

I walk in and see Luke and Ben either side of Dec, Jordan calls them to come to the kitchen as he sees me and Mase walk in. As Ben leaves he taps Dec on the shoulder and points to me. Dec stands up and runs towards me hugging me just crying. I hug him back so tight "I'm so sorry baby" I whisper in his ear and he just snuggles his face into my neck. I pull away and tell him to sit on the sofa, as I pull away he pulls Mason in for a hug, Mason then says that him and the others are going to bed and leave us to talk.
"I'm so sorry Dec. I just couldn't deal with it all" I say to him whilst laying in his arms. We decided to have a talk in bed as it's comfier. He looks at me kisses my forehead and says "don't apologise babe but I wish you'd have spoken to us instead of leaving. It broke me, thinking that not only had I lost you again but I'd lost our baby too" he finishes and puts his hand on my bump.
As he places his hand on the bump, the baby kicks and he smiles, "he must know it's daddy" I say smiling at him. He leans forward and lays his head on my belly and starts talking to the bump "hey mate, it's daddy here. I'm going to do everything in my power to keep you and your mummy safe and happy. You both mean the world to me and I'd be lost without you both. Little man, you've got a whole lot of people including me, your mummy and uncle mase who adore you already. Your such a loved little boy, you just keep kicking every so often so that when mummy feels sad, you can remind her that we've got you and that you already love her as she's going to be the best mummy ever" he kisses the bump then gives me a kiss. I lay in his arms and drift of to sleep after I feel him fall asleep not letting me go.