love to hate you.

"I'm fucked"

After we all return to Monaco I decide to tell Charles that I got fired. I didn't told him it was Pierre's fault because he's his best friend after all.

Charles offered me help to find a new job but I declined.. I decided not to tell them that I also applied to a job connected to F1. I will tell them once i get it.. if I get it..

Charles is on his way to the next Grand Prix which leaves me and Arthur alone for the next week.

We spent most of the time together. Quality time with my best friend and I couldn't be more grateful for that.

It was now race day and we were watching F1 from our couch. We prepared some snacks and ordered Pizza. I was very exited to watch the race back home with Arthur. It was still more then an hour till lights out but we were already watching the interviews and all.

They showed a clip of Pierre in the Alpha Tauri Garage and i sighed. "Why don't you just talk to him ?" asks Arthur smiling at me.

"He's not worth it.."

He laughs "whatever helps you sleep at night Em"

I punch him playfully against his arm and he just laughs even more.

For my taste they showed a lot of Pierre today and I don't know what to think about that.. there he was again.. on his phone as usual. This man has serious issues but never mind.

But the fact that he's smiling on his phone annoys me more then it should.. especially now that he's going to call Someone..

Suddenly my phone buzzes..

It's Pierre..

I decide to pick up..

"What do you want?" I ask while Arthur watches me carefully.

"Lia my love how are you ?"

"What do you want?"

"I wanted to hear your voice." I see he is still smiling thru the tv.. they never film drivers that long so why the hell now..

"Cut the crap Gasly" as I say his name Arthur smiles.

I see his smile drops "never mind.."

My heart drops..

Before he could hang up I say "drive safe.." and end the call myself.

In the tv i can see that he's smiling again.. even brighter then before.. which makes my hear beats faster.

I'm fucked.

Arthur can't stop smiling at me so I give him a death stare but he just 'aaaw's.

I know at this point declining is not helpful so I just say "shut up!". Which makes him laugh even more.

The race was all in all pretty good. Charles got P2 and Carlos P3. My Ex unfortunately P1 but I'm just ignoring that.

What I can't ignore is the fact that Pierre made it to an incredible P6 and that it makes me way too happy for him.

What the hell is wrong with me? He got me fired and exposed my relationship with Max.. not to forget about all the other asshole moves he did in the past..

But still.. he seems to be the only guy who can make my heart beat faster..

I'm definitely fucked.