love to hate you.

"Are you okay?"

24th October 2022, Austin

The next morning I wake up to an empty bed. Charles was probably having breakfast and wanted me to sleep in after last night.

As I wanted to get up I feel the hangover. My head hurts so badly and I have to run to the toilet as fast as I could. After my throw up session I take some pain killers and brush my teeth.

I stand in front of the mirror and I'm almost shocked at how bad I'm looking.

Hangover and heartbreak really don't go on well together..

My eye bags are horrendous and my eyes are swollen from all the crying. I apply some light make up so I won't scare people off.

I put on a pair of jeans and steal a hoodie from Charles. Then I put my hair up with a hair clip and head down to look for something to eat hoping I won't throw up again.

As I arrive downstairs I see Charles at a table sitting in between Yuki and Lando. The table is full with only one seat left. I walk over with a smile and see the free seat is between Daniel and.. Pierre.. perfect.

"Good morning guys! Mind if I join you?" I ask everyone and they tell me to join. I briefly smile at Pierre as I sit down but turn my attention away from him as soon as I sit.

Daniel puts his arm around me "how are you feeling after last night?"

I laugh "like shit! Seriously how can you guys look so good after that many drinks?!" I ask scotty and Chloe too which are sitting on Daniel's side and laugh.

I look around the table and recognise some faces but there are also some i don't know. I was too hungover to introduce myself and we were a lot of people so I just let it slide for now.

"Where were you at our last shooting? I missed you!" Yuki says with a cute smile.

"Ah sorry I'm not working there anymore. But I hope everything went well?"

"It was a bit more hectic and all but yeah.. why aren't you there anymore?? You're so talented!"

I smile as his sweet words. I briefly look over to pierre who tenses at Yuki's question. I smile at Yuki "It didn't worked out.. sadly.. but I'll find something else.".

I might not only talk about the job...

Everyone chats with each other but I remain silent and just smile acting like I'm listening.

I try my best to ignore Pierre next to me and as hungover as I was... let's say it was a challenge.

I can smell his perfume and feel his presence the whole time. It's driving me insane..

And here I thought I would be over him.. jokes on me.

Daniel makes me snap back in as he asks me something. I haven't heard it so I ask him to repeat it. "When is your plane taking off?" He asks.

I shrug and look over to Charles so he answers "tomorrow morning".

Daniel smiles "sooo you're free today?"

"Actually Charles and I wanted to-" I start but get interrupted by Charles.

"No it's fine go with him. I'll find myself something to do." He gives me a smile and I nod.

"Seems like I'm free.. what do you have in mind?" I ask Daniel.

"You'll see we will head there after breakfast." He says smiling as always.

We all finish our breakfast after a good hour. Everyone gets up and we part our ways. I need a few seconds to get up and not stumble over my own feet.

The others are already gone and I was just about to follow them as I feel someone holding me back by my wrist.