love to hate you.

"Emilia? Is that you?"

Did you ever got broken up in the same breath you wanted to admit your love, just before you were supposed to go on a romantic week off?

No?

Well lucky you.

I don't know how I ended up here but I was now back at the entrance of the airport. Staring at the departures. I still couldn't believe what just happend and I have no clue what to do now...

I could call Lorenzo and ask him to pick me up again but that would end with me in my bed, a lot of ice cream and crying for the next week.

I could join arthur in Paris or Charles in Ibiza but both of then would ask too many questions that I don't really want to answer now.

I could visit daniel in Australia so I would see Scotty too. But they know that Lance and I are supposed to be off for the week... also I might see Chloe. She's one of my best friends by now and I know it's not her fault but still he's her brother and I don't want to be reminded of him right now..

I kept thinking about what to do and before I know I'm sitting on a plane.

Where to?

Well... I kinda miss home.

11th August 2023, Milan

I loved this city, after monaco it is definitely my favorite. I found a beautiful airbnb in the heart of the city close to my old flat.

It's times like this where I really regret selling it.

The first two days I allowed myself to have a breakdown. Basically me, my bed and tons of food.

The other days I spend walking around the city and catching up with old friends. Even little city trips and definitely a lot of sunbathing.

I think this was absolutely everything I needed.

I haven't been on my phone much, only answering when it was necessary. Everyone still thought Lance and I were in Greece. He was, according to his insta stories but no one knew that I haven't been with him. I posted nothing the last week which was highly unlike for me but again I didn't care.

Today was my last full day here, tomorrow I'll take a flight back. I'm happy that I'll see Arthur, Charles and Lorenzo again but I'm not so thrilled about breaking the news to them...

After breakfast I take a shower and put some make up on. I make my hair up into a messy bun. I choose a beautiful Creme dress for today. Was it originally meant for a date night? Yes. but I don't care.

I make my way outside and take a walk around the city. I take everything in and enjoy the sun on my skin. After a few hours of just enjoying to be here before leaving, I sit down in one of my favorite Cafés. Nothing special but i still loved it.

I order myself a coffee and a peace of cake before I take my book out and read. Reading has also been my safety net the last days. Whenever my thoughts got too much i read and switch off everything, escaping.

A familiar voice makes me look up from my book "Emilia? Is that you?"

I chuckle and nod "Well obviously"

"What are you doing here? I thought you would be with lance somewhere?"

I sigh and tell yuki to sit down "change of plans you could say.."

The next hour I spend catching up with yuki. I didn't tell him about the break up but I think he guessed it anyways. I loved yuki. Ever since the first shooting I managed with him for alpha tauri we get on well. Also now whenever I have to film with him and the red bull boys together. You could always laugh with him, he was a good friend.

He takes a look at his watch "ohhh shit I'm late"

I laugh, nothing new there "then I don't want to stop you."

He hugs me "are you free tonight?"

"Yeah it's my last evening here."

"Good then I'll text you the address, we will partyyy" he waves before he leaves with a smile.

🍸🇮🇹🍝

No clue where we would party tonight but knowing Milan it would probably be fancy. I put my hair into a sleek pony tail and put on my favourite suit.

I take an Uber to the address that yuki send me earlier and I arrive at a beautiful house a bit outside the city. The music was already blasting and a lot of people were there. I text yuki to let him know that I'm here and enter the open front door.

It only took one second till I hear yukis voice "EMIIIILIA!! You're here" he hugs me with a bright smile.

"I wouldn't miss a party with you that's for sure."

I really had a great time. No clue who's party that was but yuki and some of his friends that I haven't met before, made it an incredible night with a lot of drinking.

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A bit more quiet this part but I think after the last ones you might need it..?