love to hate you.

a million peaces

19th November 2024, Las Vegas
Emilia's POV

I barely made it out of the bed in the morning and without Charles, Daniel and Carlos I wouldn't have survived this weekend. One of them was always with me.

I knew Charles was also with Pierre but I was glad, he needs his best friend.

I know Pierre's flight leaves tonight. It took me a lot of thoughts to decide that I need to talk to him before he leaves.

Charles wanted to take me to Miami after this before we head to the seasons finale.

So the only chance I got was today. Charles send me the details of Pierre's private flight.

When I arrived at the airport he was just about to go on the plane. The second I see Nadri I stop. Fuck. I shake off the feeling and run towards the plane.

When I arrive Pierre and Ben are the only ones to board the plane.

"Pierre!" I shout before he enters the plane.

He stops in his movements and slowly turns around. He signals Ben to go ahead and takes one step closer to me. "I don't want to talk to you anymore."

"You don't have to talk. Just listen, please..."

He doesn't say anything so I see this as my chance to talk. I take a deep breath, trying to collect my thoughts. I should've planned what to say.. hopefully my heart will find the right words.

"I love you. I loved you from the day we drove against each other for the first time in karting as kids. You are my person and nothing that happened or will happen in the future will change my mind about this."

I wipe away my tears and chuckle "We never got it right. We always messed up. All I want for us is to try. To give us a real chance."

He doesn't say anything he just stares at me, fighting his tears. "We always backed off to not hurt each other but in the end that's all we ever did."

I take a deep breath. "What happened that night.. I- you know me Pierre. If I would've known who he was nothing would've happened. I just wanted to feel... something. I will be forever sorry how things went and I hope you can forgive me one day."

"I tried to tell you first when I realized what I did.. so you didn't had to found out the way you did. But I was trying to respect your wish of talking after the weekend. That was my mistake. I should've been the one to tell you. Maybe then.."

I shrug "I wish I could go back in time. I- I." I chuckle "Fuck Pierre I'm trying to work things out. Trying to make everything right. I would do everything. I want to do so much but all I can do is to repeat a million times how sorry I am."

"You and I. We have so much history together... Please don't throw it away like that."

I look at him hoping that he says something or at least do something.

But nothing.

So I decide to do the hardest thing I ever had to do.

"But if you tell me that you want me to leave - I will." My voice weak, trembling from all the emotions going thru my head and heart.

This is the moment.

Either my heart will start to heal.

Or it will break into a million peaces.

We're both fighting tears. He hesitates before he answers, giving me hope he might say he wants me to stay.

Something in his eyes is switching, they're cold.

But then he takes a step closer and my heart skips a beat.

please...

"I want you to go." he looks me directly in the eyes, then he leans down closer to my ear. "And I never want you to come back."

He turns around and gets up the stairs.

He enters the plane.

He never looked back once.

The plane took off.

And made my heart shatter into a million peaces.