love to hate you.

"Emilia"

I hold my breath. What did he just say?!
"Stop this" I say. And he just asks "what do you mean lia ?" while looking me deep in my eyes. I still hold my breath and don't move "don't look at me like that". With a smile on his face he asks "like what?" and I just shake my head "like you want to kiss me".

"What if I want to kiss you?" He asks and I don't know what to answer. "No.. please don't.." is all i can say and he asks again why not. "You will run away again.. you will ignore me again.. you will stop talking to me again.. and I can't lose you.. not again.." my voice is weak. He takes a step back and looks at me with a sad look in his eyes. He just nods and leaves. Again.
I get furious that he has the nerves to leave like that.

I run after him i know damn well he's with the others but i don't care. "PIERRE WHAT IS WRONG YOU?!" I scream while they all look at me. Arthur looks worried and asks what's wrong but I ignore him just like Pierre ignores me.

"You know what fuck you Pierre that's exactly like the last time. I don't know what's wrong with you or why you don't get your shit together but we are done! I thought we could be civil with each other but you fuck it up EVERY TIME!!" Pierre isn't even looking at me and I'm so fed up with this that I just turn around and leave back to my room.

I'm so angry that I start to cry. I don't know what to think or do.. but Pierre is driving me insane and mad all the time.

After a few minutes I hear a knock on the door but instead of answering I act like I'm sleeping.

"I know you're awake Em" I hear Arthur's voice making me sob even more. He lays next to me and hugs me from behind. We don't talk for minutes and I just cry.

I hear another knock on the door after a few minutes and remain silent. "Hey what's wrong little one..?" I hear how worried Charles is and it breaks my heart.

I find myself crying in the arms of my two best friends for an hour.. I'm just so mad. I can't even explain it..

"Please tell me what happend.." I still hear the worry in Charles voice and don't know what to tell them.

"I.. I don't know.. it's complicated but it doesn't matter I'm fine boys.."

Arthur scoffs and says "don't be stupid you're not fine. I can't stand it seeing you crying in my arms. So tell me what he did.. you've been friends for so long.."

I shake my head "nothing happend.. I just overreacted" I hate lying to them but I don't really want to talk about it.

They both exchange a look and I know that they realised I've been lying. Luckily they both don't say anything. Arthur leaves to sleep in his and Carla's room but Charles decided to stay with me. Charles left to say Charlotte good night.

I hear a quiet "I'm sorry Emilia" and turn around quickly but Pierre already left again. Him calling me Emilia hurted me way more then it should've.

As Charles returned he took me into his arms. He knew I wasn't okay but he didn't ask any questions that night and I was more then thankful.

The next morning we all had breakfast together. I ignored Pierre as well as he ignored me. Arthur tried to keep the mood up as always and I love him for that.