Chary To Ballsy

51. What love is.

"I wouldn't lie to a woman so enchanting as you." He had a way with his words, I can give him that.

"You're too precious for me to make up words so that I can earn your trust. You're smart enough and sometimes I envy you for your smartness given the fact that those assholes kept you away from the world. But you've aced it so well, you're successful in what you've been doing, your restaurant is flourishing, you put so much faith in what you do and now see how badass you've turned. You're a bombass and I wouldn't have felt in love with someone who wasn't as bomb with so much fire that can burn you alive as you."

What did he just say? God my heart. Help it. I wasn't seeing straight and for a moment there, I was just seeing things and my eyes had blurred and before I knew it my lips were quivering, one tear had slipped down and followed by another before I was now full on sobbing.

"Did I say something wrong? I'm sorry! I...I ...d... Did..n't , God! I'm sorry marv---"

"Shut up!" I chuckled amidst tears and I wiped my eyes dry taking maybe I heard my things. He was a panicky mess and I couldn't keep it.

"You shocked me!" He exhaled letting a smile grow on his handsome face before he pulled on a serious face and moved closer to me, "Chloe Adams, I didn't know I'll say this but you've made me feel things I've never felt before, the past four months were excruciatingly long and they wouldn't have been painful if not for the fact that I'm in---"

"Don't say it." I raised my hand up in the air to stop him.

I was afraid of myself because I knew the weight those words held and I couldn't reason straight and I also couldn't help myself considering the fact that we were in the park full of children. And I was also afraid of my heart, what if he hurts me so bad next time and now that I would have given him my all, I would have nothing left? what if he's saying those words just for me to warm his bed at night? But the larger part of my heart believed him. 

"No Marvelous, I was so stupid and the moment I walked in Cherry's room that day and saw you sprawled out on her bed all innocent asking what squirting is? That was it for me. You were so special and in every way beautiful and down to earth. I think I've loved you for so long it's just that I didn't know what love was, but I don't also care what love is to other people, to me love is when you see that girl the world turns quiet and it's just the two of you and you want nothing but to wrap your arms around her, to me love is when I spend all the day at work thinking about you, about what you're doing in the restaurant, me wanting to see you, me wanting to take the pain you're feeling away, me wanting to see you smile, me wanting to see you at night everyday as I go to sleep and at morning when I wake up, just seeing you beside me, wanting you all to myself . That's what love is. Wanting everything beautiful for you, wanting to experience everything good life can offer with you."

Oh_ my_God!

His voice was smooth and vulnerable all at once. It held so much emotion, even his eyes were more darker and I could see the love itself in his eyes.

"I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you Chloe Perry Adams. And if you give me a chance, I'll want to prove my love for you every single waking day."

I blinked once, twice, thrice and then an ear splitting grin broke on my face. " I never imagined of hearing those words especially from you." I quipped still smiling.

"So, is that a yes?" He asked hopefully taking my hands in his.

"No."

His face fell. "I really mean it marvelous, it's you I love nothing else, no one else. I didn't know I loved you until you decided to give me that silent treatment and I started sneaking into your room to make sure you were okay. Sometimes it could break me when I saw your tear-stained face and I knew it was all because of me, I even wanted to write you a letter explaining myself but I knew you wouldn't believe it unless you gave me a chance to explain to you one on one. Thanks to Anley for winning you, I told her to convince you to come but if you don't believe me then I don't know what to say, but Natalie can attest to that. She already asked me for forgiveness that's why she even introduced Anley to me because she was guilty of what she did. She gave me those videos to rid them and she swore to me that those were the only copies. And I ---"