Hope (Destiel High School AU)

Chaper 10 - Stupid Mistake

*some mature stuff in this*

(Dean's POV)

I woke up feeling like crap. The sun was shining through the window, burning my eyes. I pulled the blanket up over my face and groaned out in pain.

"Oh man I feel like shit" I say to myself.

"I bet you do," I hear someone say. I knew who it was though, I recognized the voice.

"Cas?" I peep out from under the blanket and see him laying on the carpet on the ground.

"Mhm" is all he says and turns away from me on his side.

"Cas what's wrong?" It wasn't too hard to tell something was wrong. He wasn't even laying with me, so that made me confused and a bit upset.

"I'm guessing you don't remember last night.." He says and then sighs, sitting up to look at me.

"What happened last night?" I ask, groaning again because my head hurts and I still feel like crap.

"Dean..you got drunk, you smoked pot..you tried to have sex with me but I.." He looks down. "You kept trying even though I kept pushing you away...and I didn't like it.."

When Castiel had told me that, I couldn't even believe it. That sounds nothing like me. I've never been drunk, I've never done any drugs..

A tear slides down my face just thinking about how badly I probably hurt Castiel by doing all that last night.

"I'm so sorry, Cas.." Another tear falls. I sit up and pull my knees to my chest. My stomach hurts but I don't care. I deserve it.

"Dean..." he gets up and sits by me. I turn my head to look at him, but then my stomach feels upset.

"Ughhhhh" I groan again, holding my stomach.

"Hold on," Cas said before disappearing.

He comes back a minute later and hands me a glass of water.

"There's Alka-Seltzer in it," he tells me.

"Drink it, It will help a little."

I do as he tells me and drink the water as he sits back down next to me.

"Cas I'm so sorry, I really am!" I remind him.
He needs to know how sorry I am. I wasn't going to stop telling him until he forgives me.

"Dean..why did you do it?"

That was a good question. I really didn't know why I did it. "I don't know.." I say, "I was being stupid"

"You're damn right you were!" The tone in his voice had changed and I could tell he was getting a little bit more angry with me, but I didn't blame him. I made a stupid mistake, and I regret it.

"I really am sorry..." Once again, a tear slides down my face. But then he places a hand on my cheek and turns my face to his.

"I know you are." Cas wipes away my tear, then rests his hand on his lap.

"What can I do to make it all better?"

He just looks down while frowning, "I don't know, Dean..."

"I promise that it will never ever happen again, I swear!" I say while grabbing his hands. "I love you, Cas!"

"Dean, I love you too." Finally he looks back up at me. "I'm very hurt about what you did"

"I know and I'm so sorry. I hate myself."

"Please don't hate yourself... We all make mistakes.. Right?" He kind of shrugs but continues frowning.

"I just want you to forgive me, and be able to trust me."

"I do trust you, Dean.. And I forgive you."

"Really?" A smile appears on my face now.

"Um.." He looks at our hands before answering. "Yeah."

(Cas POV)

I could tell how sorry he was, and how much he regretted what he did. I knew it was only right to forgive him. Also, I didn't want to lose him.

"I do trust you Dean..And I forgive you." I tell him, fixing us.

"Really?" A glimmer of hope and relief show in his eyes.

"Um.." I pause for a second and look down at our hands before continuing. "Yes"

A smile forms on Deans face and I knew he was happy. Seeing Dean happy made me happy, so that's what mattered.

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Later that night, Dean wanted to take me somewhere. He wouldn't tell me where though, but he says it's beautiful.

As we are cruising down a road, I look out the window and see the starts that were beginning to appear in the sky. I smile because night time is my favorite time; its ways peaceful.

When we finally get to where Dean wanted to take me, it's very dark out, but there's some light where he parks the car.

We are parked in an empty lot, by a big field all around. It was just open grass from what I could see. There were a couple trees all around too. I think we're at some park.

"Come on!" Dean says, grabbing my hand and leading me along.

We stop at what seemed to be the center of this open field and he shakes out a blanket before laying it on the ground.

We lay on the blanket together, in each other's arms, as we look up into the sky.

"Isn't it great?" Dean asks me.

I look at him and he's smiling. "It sure is" I smile as well. Then I add "Very romantic" with a chuckle.

"Oh yeah?" He sits up.

"Yeah," I quietly laugh as I sit up with him.

"Come here," Dean says before pulling me in for a kiss. I kiss him back, pressing my lips against his nice, soft lips. He's an amazing kisser, for sure, so each kiss was always pure happiness and great.

Dean gently pulls me back onto him as he lays back down, and we continue to kiss.

Dean stops kissing me for a minute and says, "thank you for forgiving me, Cas." He kisses my forehead. "You really are an angel."

I smile at him and he begins to kiss me again. I feel his hands slide down to my lower back, before sliding back up to my chest, but this time through my shirt. His cold hands send a chill down my spine, but I don't mind. It was a nice feeling.

I kiss him harder and start kissing away from his lips, to his neck. He quietly moans and I smirk.

"You like it when I kiss you there?" I ask him, even though I already know the answer.

"Mhm yes," another quiet moan following by his yes, as I'm still kissing his neck.

I go back to kissing him, and he turns me over so he's on top of me.

Our kisses become a bit more rough, and he bites my lip a bit, which causes me to moan.
Deans hands make their way down my body to my jean zipper and he pulls it down.

"In the park Dean?" I tease him. I don't care if we do it here. It night, no one around, nice and quiet.. It's perfect.

"Oh, we don't have to do it if you don't-"

I cut him off by pressing my lips hard against his. I pull his shirt up and off his body and he does the same to me. Then he pulls away and goes back to taking my pants off, before I take his off.

"Do you have a condom?" I ask him.
He reaches into his back pocket and pulls out a small package, "Yep!"

"Were you already planning on doing this Dean?" I say jokingly.

"Um, no I just keep some with me..just in case." He winks at me.

We go back to kissing each other roughly and damn, this was going to be amazing.

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Hope you liked this chapter ;) Chapter 11 real soon :)