Hope (Destiel High School AU)

Chapter 19 - It's better now

(Dean's POV)

When I get to Cas' house, I jump out of the car and run to his front door. Without knocking, I open the door and just walk right in. I see Cas sitting on the couch and he shoots up once he see's me walking toward him.

"Dean what the heck, what-"

He doesn't finish because I quickly grab his face, smashing our faces together so our lips were touching. I'm kissing him roughly, not wanting to stop at all.

He gives in and starts kissing me back with the same passion.

After a minute I need to catch my breath so I say, "Please don't leave me again." Before kissing him again. I bring our bodies closer together so theirs no space in between.

"Dean I-" he tries to speak but my kisses interrupt him until he pushes back a bit.

"Dean wait." Cas finally says and I frown.

"What?" I pout my lip.

"Oh don't do that," he pushes my lip back with his index finger, and I just blush. "I'm just confused Dean. One minute we are mad at each other, the next we're eating each other's faces off."

I chuckle, "I just really miss you Cas.." I lean in and start kissing the side of his face and down his neck. "I miss you so much.."

"Dean, no," He pushes me gently away. "We should really talk about this."

"Do we have to? I just want to forget about everything Cas.. If we talk about it, it's just going to make us really upset.. And I don't want that." I tell him. What I didn't tell him is how badly it would actually hurt me to talk about, yet alone think about.

"But..." He looks down. "But we have to Dean.."

"Cas I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry!" I fall into him, wrapping my arms around him.

I feel his arms wrap around me, and he says, "Okay Dean, we won't talk about it right now."

-

Eventually Cas and I went up to his room and we have been laying on his bed in each others arms. I have missed this so much and I needed it badly. I don't want to move from this spot at all so I ask if I can spend the night and he lets me.

"Where's Anna, and Gabe?" I ask noticing that I hadn't seen them at all.

"Oh, I don't know, they went out." He replies. "Probably shopping. I wasn't listening when my mom was talking to me."

"Oh, okay. Poor sammy, I left him by himself."

"I'm sure he'll be fine." Cas tells me.

I reach into my pocket and turn on some music with the volume not too high. We lay there for a minute, just cuddling and listening to the music before I interrupt by saying , "Hey Cas?"

"Yeah?" He moves his eyes to mine. Damn how I have missed those blue eyes. His amazingly beautiful blue eyes I always got lost in. They are what got my attention in the first place, the first thing I noticed really. They just pulled me in, and I now just realized, that there's no way out. But you know what? I don't care. I don't wanna fall out of love.

With a smile on my face, I say "I'm glad we met Cas." Then I place my lips gently on his. He kisses back and places a hand on my face. For some reason, this kiss seemed better than the others we have shared before. I think it's because we have been through a lot, and I now realize how much he really means to me and how madly in love I am with him, and because I am very emotional right now.

Ugh, I always said 'no chick flick moments', but I don't know what happened with that. Castiel has changed me a bit, but in a good way. I used to be kind of an ass at times, always trying to get laid, but now I only want him.