Hope (Destiel High School AU)

Chapter 15 - We cant always have the things we want.

*Some alcohol/drug stuff here*

(Cas' POV)
I couldn't believe what I had just heard.

"I kissed someone," he said.

I didn't even say anything. I was to hurt and so much in shock.

"But let me explain Cas, I-"

"No!" I didn't want to hear anything he had to say. "We're over!" I yelled into the phone and hung up.

How could he do this to me? This was it for us. Dean and I are done.

I'm so hurt, so angry, so upset...

I hate Dean. I hate Dean Winchester so much right now.

Seriously! How could he do this to me? What have I ever done to him that made him think that I deserve what he has done to me?

The answer, is nothing. I DID NOTHING. I HATE HIM.

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(Dean's POV)

I met Cas on the day school started. That was Monday, September 6th. It's October 2nd now, so that was a month ago.
But the odd thing is, it felt like we were together for a year. We spent all of our free time together, and never got sick of each other. Come to think of it, all the time we spent together, never felt like enough. I know I may sound stupid, or crazy, but that's just how it was was him and I. Well, for me. I don't know exactly how he felt. I just know he loved me. Loved... As in not anymore...

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*the next day*

I couldn't sleep at all. I was too broken.

'You were only together a month though, Dean.' I tell my self. 'It's just a break up. Forget about it.'

But how am I supposed to just move on from something like this? I hurt Castiel badly, and I don't know what to do now.

"Are you ever getting out of bed?" I hear Sam say as he walks into my room. We were talking earlier, because he got back from Gabes in the morning. But it's noon now.

"No. Never. I'm going to die here." I tell him. It's true, because it's what I want.

"Oh shut up." He tells me then sits on my bed. I'm still laying down.

"I'm sorry about you and Cas. I really am. But I'm not going to let you lay in bed all day." He yanks off my blanket. "Let's go do something!"

I groan. "But I want to stay here."

"Well too bad! We are going to do something to get your mind off of this." He starts pulling my arm.

I just groan again. "Sam st-" he yanks my arm and I fall onto the floor. I instantly glare at him and get onto my feet.

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(Sam's POV)

I hated to see my big brother this way. It was really depressing. I know he's going through a really rough time at the moment, but I'm not going to let him stay in bed all day.

Gabe has been calling and texting Castiel to talk to him to see if he'll forgive Sam but no luck. Castiel never responds. Only rarely, but it's only to tell us to leave him alone or that he hates Dean. So yeah, no luck.

"Sam st-" I yank his arm and he falls out of his bed. I laugh as he glares at me and stands up.

"Sorry," I keep laughing. Obviously I didn't really mean it.

Dean knew I wasn't sorry either because he rolled his eyes at me and said "sure you are."

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All I want is to cheer Dean up. So we decide to go see a movie with Chuck and Charlie, and Lisa. I was going to invite Gabe but he had something to do with his mom today.

Charlie kept hitting on Lisa and it was hilarious. Lisa is straight, even Charlie knows that. But she kept doing it anyways. Lisa kept getting so red and feeling awkward. It was so funny.

We all decided we wanted to see a comedy movie, probably because they all know about Cas and Dean, thanks to Charlie, to cheer Dean up. She has a big mouth.

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Dean seemed to have had fun watching the movie because he was laughing, so that means he was distracted. When the movie is over, we all go back to chucks. I'm just a little worried because Lisa kept giving Dean funny looks the whole time we've been with each thee so far, and I hope she's not planning anything...

"Dean you should come to the kitchen with me.." Chuck said quietly to Dean. I raised an eyebrow in suspicion, about to ask what they were doing but Dean just replied "okay."

I wanted to follow but Dean wouldn't let me.

"Why can't I come?" I ask.

"Because I said so. Hangout with Charlie and Lisa, we'll be right back."

I roll my eyes at him, "whatever."

It took them ten minutes before they finally came back.

"Feeling better now?" Chuck asked Dean.

"Yes! Thanks." Dean said, all happily.

"What did you do?" I ask Dean. He was acting weird now.

"Nothing." He laughs.

"Please don't tell me you-" Lisa began but Dean interrupted her.

"Shh," with a wink.

"Dean I hope you didn't do anything stupid.. Why do you smell like...like w-"

"Shh!" Chuck shushed her up.

"Dean are you friggin kidding me?" Charlie sounded pissed.

"Calm down!" He extended the word 'down'.

"What's going on? Dean why do you smell bad!?" I ask annoyed, and a bit angry.

"He smoked something!" Lisa shouted.

What??? Dean?? Smoked something?

"Yup! Weed!" Charlie was angry too.

We all are angry! What the heck is wrong with him?

"I can't believe you would do that after what happened last time." Lisa pointed out.

"Last time? What? What the heck happened last time?"

"He smoked and drank and almost lost Cas." She told me.

"BUT THAT WAS WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER!" Dean shouted at her. "we aren't together anymore, Lisa. So it doesn't matter."

"But-"

"But nothing." Dean turned around and went outside to the backyard.

What is wrong with my brother.? He's doing drugs now.. What the heck?

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(Cas' POV)

I am still hurt. I had just told my brother what had happened and he said I need to do something to forget about it. But how can I possibly forget about what Dean had done to me?

Ezequiel is apparently taking me with him to go buy liquor. He could get any alcohol with his fake ID. He's 19 so he's underage.

"I don't think I want any alcohol." I tell him.
"Dude, relax. You'll like it."

*half an hour later, Back at the hotel*

"Let's drink, then go see our cousin again." He tells me.

"Our cousin gets into a lot of trouble though. Didn't he almost get a girl pregnant?" I ask him.

"Yeah but that's okay. Hey he might be able to hook us up with people. You're getting laid tonight!"

I wasn't too thrilled about this. But I needed to do something. Anything. To get my mind off of Dean Winchester.

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