HÖRNY BOSS

Chapter 21

JACKSON

When I left my mansion last night, I was confused. I didn't know what I should be doing or saying to Vera. I am angry at myself because I know that I love her so much already and living without her would be the worst that could ever happen to me.

I should be mad at her for coming into my life, turning it upside down, changing who I am and wanting to leave me craving and missing her everyday, but no, I feel like commiting suicide.

It's late when I opened the gate and headed to the plantation. I walked there, fearlessly and eager to run away from what I would have done.

I can make her stay. Yes, if I was determined last night, I would have done what my mind told me to do and make her swear never to step an inch away from me.

If she hadn't taught me how to hold back or suppress my feelings, we would be lying naked in bed now, talking about how much we want to stay by each other's side.

Damnit! I changed for her, I'm willing to do anything to make sure she saw me as the man for a woman like her. I could have done anything in the world to make her happy.

Was I stupid to have let her go so easily? I stayed awake at the plantation, talking to the horses, cattles and plants.

I know that she would definitely run away before I came back this morning, so I forced myself to stay back so I won't have to face the pain of watching her leave.

Isn't it enough for her that she's gonna abort my baby? Now she also hurt me and Tim! She's leaving without looking back like every other woman that I had given my heart had done.

I met Tim looking at the road expectantly as I returned this morning and I saw it in his eyes and reaction that he wasn't waiting for me. He's waiting for Vera and I thought about how she was able to leave and the excuse she gave him.

"Where's miss Vera? Did you two miss roads?" He asked me immediately I reached the gate.

"Why? Did she tell you that she was going to look for me?" I asked even though I knew that was the case.

"She's gonna bring you back. She doesn't look happy too, I think we should find her and…"

"I will do that alone, maybe she has business to take care of now. Let's go inside first, I'm very tired," I cut him off.

Why did she lie to him like that?

I took his hand and led him inside. Tim believes and loves her. She had already won his heart from the first day they met. Mrs Briggs and her kids were his favorite, but since he knew Vera, he hasn't bothered about visiting the woman and her family again. 

It would have looked beautiful if Vera had accepted me, given birth to our first child and giving Tim a young brother. We would live together in this beautiful mansion and enjoyed every night and weekends in each other's arms.

I didn't know that Monica still existed until I went back to my room and saw how she had messed up my room. When I saw her, she looked sober and dull.

"We need a househelp, that woman can help!" She scoffed.

"Why did you choose to use my room? There are other rooms in this house and… fûck you, Monica! I just hate you!!" I cursed.

"She's also leaving, Jack. I told you that no woman would want to live with a man like you. If any woman does, then that person is as crazy as you!" Monica laughed contently.

That made me furious, so I left her there before I would lose it and hurt her. She would really deserve it if I beat her up and threw her out of my house. It's not like she would do anything to me.