Fool's Gold

Chapter 39

Nick's POV
Walking in the door of the apartment that Grace and I had shared shattered my heart. All of the lovely but now haunting memories filled my mind. My legs turned to jelly and I collapsed onto my knees, tears pouring out of my eyes. I didn't think that coming home would be this tough but it was. An image of Grace was now carved into my mind and all that I could manage to do was sit there, in the doorway and cry to my hearts content. The world seemed like a dark and horrible place these days. Grace was the only brightness in my life and now I have nothing. Immobile, I sat there for the next three hours, thinking of all of the memories that I shared with Grace.

The next day I went outside to check the letter box. It was a job that I was dreading as I knew that it would be filled with sympathy cards. They were the last thing I wanted to read. I opened the door and to my surprise there were three fresh bouquets of flowers with notes attached to them. Before picking them up I checked the mailbox. There were over ten cards inside. I picked up the letters and the flowers and took them inside. I placed them on the bench and sat on the lounge, trying to take my mind off of things. Lately I hadn't been motivated at all and most of my days consisted of sitting on the lounge, watching movies and crying. I needed to find something that would give me the motivation to get up in the morning, but I couldn't seem to find it. Instead, I was just an uninspired person living in a world with no meaning. I couldn't even think of a way that could possibly get me out of what seemed like this never ending sinkhole that I called life.

All of my friends had been coming over a lot more frequently lately. I guess that they thought it would help to comfort me but to be honest it didn't do anything. Whenever I saw Grace's friends it made me think of the beautiful life that she left behind and I seemed to be reminded of her in everything that I did.