Moving In part 2 -might want to read the first part but 🤷🏾♂️ not 100% needed I guess
Jahseh and Sienna's Story Contines...
After their rough break up, they try to rekindle a friendship that doesn't exactly work out. When Sienna finally moves on s...
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Sienna pov:
"Go to the doctor Babygirl your making things harder on yourself. You want me take you" he asked and I roll my eyes.
"Zay please don't start. You remember when your mom brought up the miscarriages"
"You want to talk about it " he asked causing me to sigh. I wanted to share finally it's just alot to share.
"What do you want to know"
"Start with the first one" he says and I shrug.
"Uh it was scary. I was upset and mad. I don't know how I felt to be honest. I didn't want to believe it. I was disappointed in myself. Mad at myself. Upset with Jahseh, scared definitely. I didn't want it but to give it up didn't feel right either I felt something telling me not to do it almost especially after I heard the heartbeat for the first time. I probably should have and maybe the whole two miscarriages thing would've never happened." She says and he goes quiet for a bit taking it in.
"I broke down in the hospital Kaisen comforting me. Then telling Jah I knew he'd be happy but he asked me if I wanted the abortion anyways knowing how I felt about kids. He was understanding, at first" I add.
"What do you mean at first"
He started doing shit that would piss me off like oh you didn't want kids no way you'll just get an abortion anyway.
"The fuck type shit is that"
"Don't do that, I'm not trying to make him seem like a bad guy this is all completely biased because at the times we had problems with each other already that I guess just went unspoken"
"You defend him like you'll get hurt if you don't" he says and I chuckle. I know part of the reason I'm so defensive is because he's the first person I felt actually loved me and meant it. I found love in him so to tear him apart due to him no longer feeling that way about me didn't seem right.
"That's the shit I use to talk to him about how he always defends her and how I wished for a love like the one he has for her" I say and Zay just cleared his throat. Instead I got it the other way around I gave him the same love and care he gave to Alyssa. Alyssa would of forever been someone I worried about taking my place ,but that Ari bitch. That was a different feeling.
"I'm not in love with him" I roll my eyes.
"You love him though it's evident. Which y'all clearly went through a lot of BS but I know there's more than what was just apart of the relationship"
"I love him but not in the same way. I don't think I even look at him the same as I use to, well I don't think I would."
"You don't have to explain it, I'm cool. I keep trying to tell you that it won't bother me. Sienna as cold hearted as you be acting I'm glad you found love in somebody. Do I wish it were me at times maybe, partially. Truthfully speaking in the past we never had the communication or understanding that we have on each other now, so I wouldn't expect you to have fallen in love with me. We're a lot more mature now and I know I got on your past ex's for the shit but I was no better. I treated you just as bad if not worse. I knew the feelings you had for me and how you felt , but still did the shit anyways making several broken promises. So I don't have no right to get upset that you have love for another nigga, I don't say much when you was calling me cheater and shit because it's the truth. I know that shit hurt you even though you pretend it didn't. Back on topic though, like I said it don't bother me. As long as you remain honest about how you feel and you not using me I don't mind it. If you think your feelings for him will cloud how you feel about me just let me know. I told you I'm not here to waist your time if we don't work this time I guess it's not meant to be. " he tells me. I sat quietly taking in everything he said.
