You and I [Joshleen]

Losing My Mind

~Josh's POV~

It has been a month since Colleen and I broke up. I started to go into a deep depression. When most couples break up, it isn't this bad. But my connection with Colleen; I thought she was absolutely perfect. It has been really hard without her lately. I was slowly losing weight and what was even worse, was that I practically started begging to have her back.

I have no idea what I was even thinking at the time. I lost my mind. And instead of actually talking to Colleen, I constantly called and texted her parents. It finally got to the point when they would decline my calls and read my messages but not answering me. I had no idea what to do now. So, I called my friend Tim. At least I still had a friend to talk to.

"Hey Tim..."

"Hi Josh! What's the matter? You sound...upset..."

"Yeah, well...um, I broke up with Colleen..."

"Oh...well I'm sorry. You must be really sad."

"Well of course! I thought she was the most perfect girl ever. I dated many girls in high school, but Colleen...she was different..."

"Dude, I'm coming over there right now. I can't stand it when you're this upset!"

"You don't have to."

"I'm on my way." And then he hung up. Ten minutes later, there was a knock on the door. I opened it, and there was Tim. He gave me a hug, knowing how devastated I was. And then we sat down at the table, and just chatted for a while.

"You know, you look like you lost a lot of weight Josh..."

"I try to eat more, but I never feel like eating anymore."

"Josh, go see a therapist. Being this skinny isn't healthy for you!"

"Are you sure?"

"Positive!" So after Tim left an hour later, I called and booked an appointment with my doctor. I figured that he could tell me recommendations for a good therapist.

~Colleen's POV~

I now live with my parents again, since I just can't live with Josh. But it just didn't feel right, not being able to see him around often. I sat on my bed, all curled up, looking at a framed photo of Josh and I. All I wanted was to have a good relationship. But that could never happen if we could not get along.

It was 9:14 PM and I got ready for bed. When I crawled under the covers, I started crying. It felt weird to sleep without Josh next to me and cuddling together. I cried myself to sleep that night.