Dauntless Born

Chapter 15: Corruption

I woke up to Four scrambling. It was late still. I got up walking to my door while wiping sleep out of my eyes, my glasses in my hand. Four? I asked and he looked over. What- I don't know. He said and I frowned, putting my glasses on. I followed him out. The other difference between Four and I, was in an emergency, which I assumed was what was happening, he took the time to change and put his shoes on. I just walked out in my pajamas, no shoes. I go towards the pit, and when we get there I just stop dead in my tracks, as a body hits the grated floor, from the Chasm. My stomach pitted. I stumbled back away from Four, he didn't notice. I stumbled down towards a dark hallway, I kept looking back at the pit and what they were doing, I could still hear the sound of the body hitting the pavement. I kept hearing echoed voices, yelling, one muttering for the person to wake up, someone calling time of death.

I got to a crossroads hallway. I stopped as people brought the body through the hall on  a stretcher. They used stretchers when someone was too big for a body bag. I watched the arm on the body just fall out from under the cloth and bounce some as they went over stairs. My stomach twisted, as I turned slamming into a wall somewhat. My legs had refused to hold me, as they shook. I let a sob out, but it turned into a laugh. Not a normal laugh. I was hysterically laughing. I covered my mouth as I felt tears fall from my cheeks. It was hard reliving things. I put my head against the cold wall, trying to take deep breaths, my eyes closing, I could hear their footsteps getting farther and farther away, until all I could hear was the subtle thunder of the Chasm. Even the echoed memories, weren't really present.

This is the part that scared me about initiation here. Would it break me if I stayed? Would I end up just like other initiates that took the fatal swan dive? Or would I somehow actually make it? A few minutes later I heard someone walking up. Kacie? I turned and saw Zeke and swallowed hard. You ok? I shook my head and he looked around, before getting ahold of my shoulder. Come on. He said putting his arm around me. We walked to Control Room B. He sat me down and frowned. What's wrong? This happens every year. I shrugged some shaking my head. A not so great memory keeps popping up. He frowned some while glancing around. What happened? When I was four years old, I fell in. He frowned at me and I shrugged some. Time they got me back up I had died from asphyxiation, I was gone for, four minutes I think they said. I looked down at my shoes. Recently that's been prying itself out of the dark corner I keep it in. Kacie I-

He had nothing to say. Typically when people found this out they really didn't have much to say. I shook my head standing. It's fine, really. I'll walk you home. I frowned some but didn't object. I didn't really want to be alone for once. And I was more glad it was someone other than Eric who found me this time. I shuttered some as I thought about what had happened. His warning followed very quickly behind the thought. We made it back to the apartment right as Four did. Hey where did you go off to? I just looked down and went into the house. Kace?

Four

I looked at Zeke. What happened? He shook his head. Look man, I don't like playing double agent, if you wanna know you have to ask her yourself. She is hiding things from me again, she's not gonna- That sounds like a you problem, Four. He said and I frowned some. Kacie, is an open person, when people are open with her, so if she is hiding stuff from you, enough so that you noticed, then it's because you are hiding things from her. He shook his head walking off to the stairs. I frowned some, and thought about her behavior towards Amar shortly before his death. She was very reserved and short. 

I turned and went inside, and walked to her room. I knocked some her music still playing. It's open! I opened the door and saw her painting. I watched her use a burnt orange spray paint, it dripped down some. Hey, that's new. Yeah. She said shaking a burnt red can. Can I ask you something? Sure, you can ask, but it does depend if I want to answer it. I sighed some shaking my head. What're you hiding? She stopped, I watched the words hit her. What're YOU hiding? She asked in return. I rolled my eyes some. She deflected a lot, especially when she was hiding a lot more then she said. As angry as it made me, there were times I was glad she grew up here, because she would have never made it in Abnegation. She would have never made it with Marcus. Kacie I am trying ok?!? I just need you to spill whatever you are hiding!