Dauntless Born

Chapter 4 Outside

OCTOBER 22ND AFTER MEETING

I sat on the train just staring at the route map. Get me out as all cost. I glanced over as Uriah and Zeke were whispering. Zeke walked over and crouched. Kace- I looked up at him. Eric really did care about you. What? I heard what Cara told you. He nodded. And yeah I over heard him telling Cara that when he left that he was gonna find you and then book it out of the fence and to meet him in Amity, he wanted to leave. But he made her promise to get herself and you out if it went south. I looked down at my feet. I wasn't a fan on him but I am a fan of you, so I am so sorry for your loss. Whatever, it'll all be over. I said crossing my arms over each other, on top of my knees. I sighed some looking outside the open door now. Anywhere but the two of them. I didn't want to have to talk about Eric, or this whole situation.

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We got back to Dauntless and I shakily was walking in. Do you want one of us to walk with you or- no I'm fine. I said shortly and tightly. I didn't  really want to be with anyone. I held on tightly to the railing over the chasm. The cold biting into my hand. It felt like the climb up to the apartments took forever. I stopped in front of Four's old apartment. I knew I'd have to get stuff out of there. I shook my head and walked up the rest of the way to Eric's apartment. I opened the door and looked in from the outside. My heart sank as I stepped in and closed the door. I leaned against the apartment door, looking around at his apartment. I felt like I was going to cry. My legs started giving out. I stumbled forward catching myself on the table. I braced as I cried, tears hit the wooden table. One of us were getting out. He should have been able to get out of here, but he hadn't had the chance. I should have tried harder. I said out loud. I could feel him staring at my back. Kacie, there was NOTHING you could have done. Do you know how many times I visited him, Uriah? He sighed lightly. How many times I could have gotten him out of here?!? And what?!? Face being a traitor?!? I'm already one. I said finally facing him. No you aren't. You never were. He said before hugging me. I just leaned into him sobbing. All he could do was hold me and try to comfort me.

Uriah

I sat there watching her sleep. Something in me wouldn't let me leave. I looked down at my shoes and sighed some. Lately she was left to her own devices, why? Because she was a fourteen year old Dauntless born. She could hold her own. She had proven herself capable, multiple times. But it didn't excuse the fact we had taken her for granted. Kacie was one of those people that if she really truly cared about you, she'd give you chance after chance. But keep abusing those chances because "it's Kacie, she'll give me another" She wouldn't. Four, her brother, of all people had reached his limit, and even then she was still different towards him. Like she wanted to give him a chance, but didn't. I looked back up at the ceiling. I was guilty of leaving her behind. I was one of her friends, and I left her. Initiation was a bitch. It left her to lean on Eric of all fucking people. It left her a traitor. What had we become if we were so quick to judge Kacie, KACIE as a traitor when she was just a kid. A kid who just wanted everything to go back to how it was. I stood up shaking my head before slipping out. None of us deserved her. I think the only one who really did was maybe Amar, but even then he had his faults. But he always tried with her. Eric kinda deserved her because at least he fought to keep her safe. Or something. Still didn't excuse what he did, because it was wrong. I sat down over the chasm. I looked down and thought about right after Marleen, Kacie was willing to just jump. I put my head on the cold bar. It'll be ok. Zeke said sitting next to me. I'm worried about her going out there with us. She's gotta go man, her mom wants her dead. I know but- She'll be ok, she's got you around. I laughed some. Like I can keep anyone safe at this point. You both are ya know, weird, weirdo's gotta stick together. I snorted some. If you insist.

OCTOBER 23RD

Tobias
I walked down the hall in stride with her. The cameras show her getting on the train at 11:36 P.M and off at 11:45. And? Then later another camera picks her up getting on sometime after midnight, but the last thing it picked up- I watched the second footage. She shot out the camera. Evelyn said and I frowned some. And they managed to still miss her? She nodded and I shook my head. But this means she is at least in the city which means we can find her. Not for long. I thought but just nodded. The fact I had seen her twice now. The fact we were both leaving. Don't worry. Yeah I'm not. I said sighing some. I'll be back before curfew. Where are you going? Just gonna go look for her at some of her favorite places. Ok, do you want- no, I can go alone. I said before walking out.