lovestar | skephalo

chapter 46 | 19th

Zak POV
CW : depicts of depression
19th of December 2020, that's the date today.

I thought it was important to start by saying this, because 19th of December is a very significant date to me. And when I meet significant, I don't mean it in a happy and joyful day - yet it's depressing.

What's depressing is me, I'm 90% sure I'm depressed at the moment.

- My parents have disowned me (basically)
- I'm single and touch starved
- I don't get to celebrate Christmas in California (which is at home)
- I'm still in love with my ex
- My ex is in love with someone else
- I feel like I'm never in control and I'm treated like a puppet (literally.)
- And December 19th, the date Jeanette Wonderfield died

I sit in the shower pondering about these thoughts, i snap out of my trance when I realise I have three minutes left to shower before I'd run late for todays performance.

I stop the shower and I wrap a towel around my waist, I grab a smaller towel to dry my hair, my hairs growing out longer and I think I should get a haircut soon. When I finally dry off completely I change into flared dark blue jeans, a white button up shirt and a leather jacket - to finish the outfit I wrap a belt around my waist.

Ever since yesterday I've felt more drained, and I haven't been feeling my normal self. I got three hours of sleep, because of two reasons. 1, Geos snoring and 2, I got distracted by my phone. Whenever I tried putting my phone down my eyes felt wide awake. Before I used to love interacting with fans on social media, but now I don't get the same joy as before.

When I finish putting on my black leather boots I see Geo waiting on the bed, "How much sleep did you get? You have eye bags under your eyes - Is it because of yesterday?" Geo seems worried, he says it all in like a concerted rush.

"I asked nicely if you could not bring it up." I remind him, Geo nods and quietens.

"We're going to Starbucks for breakfast today, Cara can't come since she has some work to do so would you like to come with me and Ant?"

"Ermm- Yeah." I smile.

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Darryl POV
I wake up to see Rat sleeping next to me, I yawn. "Good morning Rat." I chuckle slightly, stroking her back.

It's so cold today, I'm pretty sure I might freeze my head off if I go outside today. Rat yawns as she stretches, I flip on my other side and I reach for my phone which has just been finished charging. My eyes lit up

Zak
Hey :)

I completely forgot about me texting him, I wouldn't have thought he would actually respond after leaving him in the park.

You
I'm sorry about what happened at the park. I had to come back home asap for something important

You
Are you still in Ohio?

Surprisingly, Zak replies almost instantly.

Zak
its alg ! I understand

Zak
yep, we're about to go starbucks

You
Send me a pic of what u get pls >_<

Zak
haha okay sure

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Zak POV
Was I dry? Hope not, people say I'm dry when it comes to texting - whatever that means.

We're walking to Starbucks, it shouldn't be to far away. I wander around, lots of these building seem new and modern. When we turn to the right i recognise this street a little to much, a little to familiar to my liking.

Jeanette. Jeanette was the first thing to come to mind when I saw it. The school, the death, the date today.

Instead of my middle school being there they replaced it with apartments.

I frown, I still remember walking through the doors of school every day.

I must've paused because I could hear Ant and Geo calling my name