BBW ( Just republishing to hopefully finish it, there might be slight changes)

SIMZ & NIKI

Watching her with her sister brought a smile on my face as she seemed more relaxed and less stressed. The past months she has been very jumpy and the nightmares were not helping either but she seemed to be less angry at me. That was evidenced by her finally returning to our bedroom the other night . As happy as I was I could not stop wondering if it was just a one night thing or this was the beginning of her eventually forgiving me for the lies I told and secrets I have kept. It was never done with malice but I still felt like the worst partner ever because as much as I did not directly put her in this predicament, they still went after her to hurt me and I was hurting, badly.

" It's Christmas stop looking so gloomy."

" I'm sorry, I'm just so worried about her and at the same time scared for our future especially since she decided to keep the baby."

" I thought that's what you wanted, that's what my wife told me."

" It is but I don't want her to do this for me only to resent the baby and I tomorrow. I fear that this will cause resentment."

" It might but have you talked to her about it?"

" Yes and she honestly said she doesn't know what she might feel tomorrow or months from now about the baby and I. So I'm just going to keep praying."

I knew Zweli and Thuli have kept in constant contact with Niki and I was hoping they would know more but I guess they did not know. Their eleven month old son stirred in the car seat and Zweli went to pick him up. He had been sleeping since they got here. We went into the backyard where the ladies were seated by the pool, to give Thuli the baby so she could breastfeed him.

" You're okay?"

Recently I have developed the habit of asking her if she was okay, it somehow kept me at ease and less worried.

" I'm actually great. I've missed my sister so much and you really made my day. Thank you."

" You're welcome."

She pecked my lips before seating on my thighs. I smiled when I realised that she seemed to be heavier than the last time she sat on me.

" I've been meaning to ask when you put up the Christmas tree?"

" How did you notice it when you were so occupied with your sister"

" Babe even a blind men can see all those sparkling lights in the living room."

" Well I brought it in last night, I wanted to surprise you. Do you like it?"

" Yes but are those gifts all mine."

When I put up the tree I thought she would sprint for the gifts but I guess seeing her sister distracted her.

" Well I had to get something for our guests so not all are yours."

My phone vibrated in my pocket and I pulled it out to find that my dad was calling but I ignored it then my mother called , I declined her too. Just as I was about to put it back in my pocket I got a text from my mom.

" We just wanted to invite you over for Christmas dinner. You and your girlfriend. We mean no ill intent."

Niki read.

" Are you going to go or respond?"

" No. I meant it when I said to them we no longer have a relationship. My father is the reason you were harmed and I'll never ever forgive him for that. No matter how many times he apologises."

It hurt that I had such parents but Niki was my family now and we were starting our own traditions and family. I could not wait.