Hue:Blues Pt.2 ( Ryeji )

19. Move on.

RJ's POV

I didn't know that I've been in this bus for a long time. My mind was so lost that even the sunlight that passes through the window was not reminding me that I should get off the bus, not until the driver was the one to tell me.

Because of that, I needed another ride to go back and I payed an uber to send me to Chaeryeong's house.

As I arrived there, thankfully she hasn't left for work and I just looked at her tiredly. I didn't need to speak any words and she just smiled at me before giving me a hug.

"I don't really need to open the shop. Wanna grab a drink?" She whispered while tapping my back.

Just that simple act, the ache in my heart began to grow again. I just nodded before I even release a whimper.

Then we settled at her living room after she brought out the drinks we'll be consuming early in the morning.

"We haven't had our time like this since you came back" she spoke as she handed me a can of beer.

"Sorry" I felt a bit bad. I've been busy with her and haven't spend a lot of time with a true friend like her.

But she just chuckled and glance at me. "It's fine. We're both busy anyways" she said. "So... Tell me when you're ready".

And she waited patiently.

After downing half of what she prepared, it's starting to affect my system but still, my thoughts was just on her. The things that happened last night and everything else that she has said.

"I caused that accident right?" I began. "Yeah I did. That's what she meant" I followed, not giving her time to respond.

It seems to shock Chaeryeong a little by how she spoke. "What? What does she know?" She asked.

"I'm the reason why she lost her memories" I chuckled as I down yet another can.

I heard her sigh. "That's bullshit. You're trying to save her that time right? It was an accident. Does she remember the past?".

I shake my head, that time... The terrifying feeling was coming back. "Still, it was my fault. I caused the accident".

That memory, one of our lasts, I had a tough time moving on from that and now... I think I don't deserve to forget that while she's believing that it was my fault.

"What should I do now?" I asked. I don't really know what step should I take in order to get close to her once again... I want to reach her but.. I felt like we're too distant from each other.

She gave it a thought before patting my shoulder and looked at me with a smile. "I guess you should go back to your house. Think while you're alone but don't do anything stupid and just.. find peace".

'Should I?' she answered different from what I expected but still, it does make sense.

"But I wanted to go back there with her, not alone" I said but will it happen?

"If you can't do that now, it'll happen soon. Not everything you wanted was meant to happen anyways". Again, saying something that make sense even though I don't want to accept that fact.

And it hit me hard.

Am I the only one wanting us back? Am I forcing our relationship that faith was giving up on us?

Maybe she realized that what she said made me think deeply and so she spoke again.

"Hey" she called that made me look at her. "If ever you'll doubt or think of something negative. Keep in mind how she showed her love to you. Even if she doesn't remember anything, even if she was told about something stupid, hold onto her and never give up on her"