Hue:Blues Pt.2 ( Ryeji )

17. Never Again.

YJ's POV

It was Dad who's calling non-stop from our last night at the beach and when I reached our room, I called him back right away.

And I didn't know what to feel from our conversation at all.

I felt betrayed, fooled and hated myself for accepting someone who did cost me to lost my memories.

Dad told me everything I should know for now. He said he saw our photos and his voice was full of rage as he told me to stay away from the girl on my side or he will make me come back there no matter what.

I was confused at first, puzzled as to why it seems like he knows her so I asked and from that... I started to feel numb.

He explained that we were in a relationship, a manipulated one, and she did everything to take me away from my parents and when she was driving, we got into an accident that took my memories away from me.

And that accident was seen as a chance by my parents to take me back from her and live a new life... Without someone like her.

He added how I was used by her knowing my family background compared to hers but he said I was not believing anything they were saying back then because of her.

I can't believe that I let myself be acquainted with her again. I thought I like her because of how she treats me.. how she cares and everything she's done that makes me happy but turns out... Maybe it's out of guilt.

And I felt dumb of being swayed.

Love?... Stupid.

She's putting a show ever since we met and I can't feel anything aside from hatred. I thought it was okay for me not to know my past but now that I know who's in fault for everything, I felt like bursting and putting every blame on her.

She had a lot of time to explain herself but she chose to play a game where she knows she'll benefit by hiding the truth.

And what's she's been talking about that past love of hers??

How stupid I am.

I let her fool me once again if.

I despise her for coming back into my life. She appeared and now my mind was messed up because of her.

That night, I asked my coworkers to join me and have the best party so I could atleast sleep from what I discovered.

I don't want to care even if she waited for me the next day, she deserves to suffer.

And I.. I won't let myself near her again.

I'm not too drunk when we stopped drinking and I stayed at the balcony to breath some air while the others went back to their own rooms and my roommate was asleep.

Maybe my mind was already affected by alcohol that I started to think of her yet again but now... I felt like I want to see her.

I sat on the floor as I lean on the wall while I watch the sea, I didn't noticed that I was tearing up and my heart was aching but.. I should be mad.

"Why... Why it has to be you?" I cried out, closing my eyes so tight while my mind wanders to when she's treating me so right making me feel safe and gives warmth.

I want to hate her so bad, that is what my mind was telling me but my heart screams to find her and hold her.

"What should I do now?" I asked myself.

Dad won't ever lie to me, he's been there supporting me and taking care of me since the day I woke up, so why...

When I admitted to myself that I fell for you, you happened to be my worst nightmare.