Hue:Blues Pt.2 ( Ryeji )

10. This Feeling.

YJ's POV

I can't explain this feeling. Guilt... Irritation... I don't know but I feel uneasy like I did something wrong.

Is it because of the talk with dad. But no... I should've got used to him that way so this felt different.

Here I am standing in my room, watching the night street outside the window as I can't sleep since I got home.

I'm trying to figure out why I am feeling like this until a picture of someone who we met at the mall earlier got into my mind and my heart started to feel things...

"Why..." I mumbled to myself, playing the pendant of my necklace to help ease my mind and somehow, in someway, I felt like I got an answer that was buried within.

I turned to look at the wall clock and I didn't noticed it was so late that I'll only be getting a little time to sleep but again, I still need to rest so I went to my bed, under my blanket and decided to take at least a nap.

But as I close my eyes. I saw her leaving...

And that made my eyes open as I quickly sat up, feeling my heart pound erratically.

'Looks like I won't be getting any sleep'

Soon, morning came and that happened. I didn't sleep so I just went to work earlier than I used to clock in.

Maybe because I know that she go to work way earlier than us, I may have waited for her.

As I sit at my desk, I keep on looking at the glass door and wasn't able to start my work at all.

And still, I feel restless since I didn't get any sleep last night. I haven't had my breakfast... Maybe thinking that someone would bring me one.

Not too long after I arrived, she came but didn't look too good despite her, smiling.

I don't know but I got a feeling that she's not completely fine and it's bothering me to the point I just want to accompany her to know what is it.

And we had a little talk, I allowed her to call me by my real name but I she haven't told me hers and left after saying we'll have a talk later the night.

Even if I'm busy or not, I know to myself that I'll go see her.

For the whole day, I busied myself accomplishing my tasks for the day but still, the curiosity of what she'll say later keeps on getting into my mind.

Until it was announced to us workers that we'll have a meeting and I just wished that it won't take too long since I'm looking forward to the talk she mentioned.

During lunch and coffee break, I tried to visit her workplace to check up on her but I didn't saw her so I just came back on working.

An hour before the time we usually go home, our meeting started and even though I was physically there at the meeting room, my mind was wandering at someone who's possibly waiting for me somewhere in this building.

I keep on checking the time, wanting for the meeting to end quickly but it didn't.

As soon as we were finished, I picked up my belongings and bid my goodbyes to my co-workers and beomgyu then rushed my way out.

I ran as fast as I can and when I reached the hallway on the way to where she works, I stopped seeing that the lights were turned off.

"Did she go home?" I asked myself, not admitting that I'll feel disappointed if ever she did.

But still, I walked my way to check and luckily I did.

"Am I late now?" I said as I saw her at the glass window with only a little light making her noticeable. "We had a meeting so I couldn't--" I tried to explain if ever making her wait made her mad but she interrupted.