Hue:Blues Pt.2 ( Ryeji )

30. Your Name.

YJ's POV

Since the day I received that message, something didn't sit right and I know, I can feel that she's bothered too.

I thought I can just set that aside but every day, I felt like in everything I do.. I worry.

About her.

About our day.

About everything that could happen just because I chose to stay here.. where my happiness was.

As she told me to follow my heart, I decided to be where she was but.. as the days goes by, I consider settling it with my father.

Because I don't want the day will come, where someone will suddenly appear here and hurt her just to take me away.

That's the least thing that I wanted to happen.

"What are you thinking?" I asked since she's been staring at nowhere and released a couple of sigh now.

We're here at the living room where she rest her head on my lap. We just had our lunch which she cooked, it become like a thing for us without needing any agreement.

She just looked up on me like she's contemplating whether to tell me what's in her mind or not and from the moment that she spoke, "Nothing. Just want to sleep for a while".

I knew she chose to keep it in herself.

So I started to pat her head to help her ease her mind and sleep anything that's been bothering her that I know, I'm part of.

As she closed her eyes, I took that chance to decide for something that both of us would get affected.

She's holding my hand so tight that I know to myself that she's scared to lose me like how I'm terrified of having her taken away from me.

"Sleep. I won't go anywhere" I told her as my eyes started to get blurry and I don't want her to get worried.

And like instantly, her hand loosened and fall to her side.

Then I reached to get my phone, I haven't turned it on since the day I messaged my dad.

I don't want to think more of the things that he has to say while I stay here but now.. I need to see what he thinks he can do to make me go back to Seoul.

And as I opened it, there was a lot of messages that I thought would only come from one person but Lia and Beom was checking on me which I appreciated but Dad's words caught my attention the most.

'Go back home if you don't want to get things complicated'

'What lie did that girl told you to make yourself a fool again?'

'Not answering my calls doesn't make anything easier, know that'

'Don't you value your life anymore that you chose to be around someone who only bring misfortune and mess your life?'

Those are the things that was sent the past few days, and some more that goes along with those phrases.

But there's this one..

'We're going home'.

Can't he just let me be this time?

I felt too much right now that I carefully moved her head off my lap and pit a pillow under, then I ran my way to the bathroom.

As soon as I get in, I cried but I tried my best not to make my sobs loud enough to reach her.

And after a moment of letting my tears out, my mind went on the person that was peacefully sleeping on the couch.