Hue:Blues Pt.2 ( Ryeji )

16. But Why?

RJ's POV

I walked my way back to the resort, feeling numb and hurt since I expected her to come, to see me and spend her time with me.

Like what we agreed... Or did we?

No, maybe she's too tired from yesterday and so, I shouldn't feel like this. There's more time for us to travel back to those places and this won't be the last chance we'll have.

I removed my scarf and put it in my bag before I went to their room. It was already daylight but I still tried to listen on the other side of their door and I heard them laughing.

Nervously knocking, I waited for her to come out but it just went silent for a couple of seconds before I heard footsteps coming so I step back and I don't know but I felt disappointed seeing someone else opened the door.

"Is there something you need?" Her roommate asked and I couldn't see Yeji as I peeked inside their room.

"I ah.. want to talk to Lucy for a sec?" I said and hid my hands in the pocket of my jacket to hide how it slightly trembles.

And her roommate just smiled apologetically as she spoke. "Sorry, she's still sleeping".

I may be wrong but I think I smell liquor coming from her breath and I just nodded in understanding before I bid my goodbye.

As I walk my way back to my room, my mind lingers on the laughters I heard before I knocked. I'm sure one of the voices was hers but why... Why did her roommate said she was asleep?

No. Maybe, my mind was just playing with me.

Since we will leave after breakfast, I chose to rest on my bed for awhile because I'm still tired from the drive and from yesterday.

After a while, maybe I fell asleep for hours and I woke up with a knock coming from the door so I quickly went to open it.

Beomgyu just told me to get ready and we will leave already, he also added that he already prepared me a packed meal since I missed breakfast which I thank him for.

There's really nothing to get since I already prepared my stuffs last night. So I took my time sitting on the edge of the bed, thinking how I will face her without showing that her absence earlier made me upset.

Or how can I even start a conversation and don't bring something about that matter.

Checking the time, I sighed as I decided to finally go where the van is, maybe most, if not everyone, was already there waiting.

And as I arrived, laughs instantly invaded my ears and a particular one echoes so beautifully that caused my mood earlier to be forgotten.

But I may be a bit disappointed to see her already sitting at the very back between her two coworkers which gives me no space to sit but only at the passenger seat.

"Are you fine sitting there? Do you want to change seats?" I was taking a glance back at Yeji when I heard Beomgyu's voice.

I looked at him and he's talking to me but he's also not sitting near her so there won't be a change whether we change seats or not.

"No, I'm fine here" I said and tried to get comfortable with my seat even though all I can hear was her voice, and it kinda hurt that it seems like she's fine with ditching me earlier.

But I should avoid these kind of thoughts since it'll just affect my mood, behavior and how will I get back to her if that simple thing cause so much in my head?

So as the van took off and their laughter had died down, I plugged my earphone and settled with songs that makes me calm.

Maybe an hour on the road, I felt sleepy so the thought of having a pair of eyes glued on me was thrown at the back of my head as I enter a hopefully, wonderful dreamworld.